I signed her shirt – “I’ve probably never told you this but you’re hot, Hope x”. She probably wouldn’t read it till later so it wasn’t causing any harm telling her i think she’s attractive. After all she’s called me gorgeous before. The only difference here is she is actually hot, whereas she was just calling me gorgeous because it was the only thing she could say at the time.
She wrote something on mine but i couldn’t be bothered reading it, there were too many things to do today. I said a quick goodbye and left with my friends to get something to eat. We sat, we ate, we laughed. It was the last day of school and i couldn’t wait to get out of this hellhole. I was going to miss people but hey. I was finally growing up.
I had to meet with my class before lunch so i headed over. We had to fill in some forms and receive our yearbooks then we had the rest of the day on frees. I walked in and was immediately confronted by my tutor, “right, take a form, and pass the rest out, why are you so late?” she shouted at me. God i hated her. I took them and passed them out, putting my bag down halfway through. I got my yearbook and was surprised by all the nice comments people had made about each other when only 3 weeks ago everyone was at each other’s throats. Hah. Anyway i was glad, i was happy, summer couldn’t wait.
I looked up and she caught my eye, she winked at me and i raised an eyebrow and smiled. What does that mean? I guessed she read what i wrote and mouthed it to her, she mouthed ‘yes’, i smiled and got all embarrassed so i said i was finished and left. I heard her call after me halfway down the corridor so i turned around. “Yes?” I asked her
“What you wrote” She moved closer, i stopped
“What about it?”
“I don’t know, you’re kind of gorgeous”
“Ah you see thanks but i meant what i said, you just told me something to make me feel good” I laughed
“No really” She moved oh so much closer i could hear her breathe “I meant it”
“Uh okay. And?”
She reached down. She was taller than me by quite a bit, but then again so was everyone else. 3 layers: my blazer, my shirt, her shirt.
“You are gorgeous” She said again. I could feel her breath on my lips oh god. I panicked, like i usually do.
“Look I’m going to be late, we’ll talk later” I slipped out under her and speed walked down the stairs, kind of hoping she’s follow me again. I looked back, to find her slouched against the wall, she shrugged her shoulders and put in her headphones. I met up with my friends again and we sat on the bench outside the science building.
“Bro, your shirt” Chloe said to me, stifling a laughter but looking somewhat confused.
I looked down, on my hip she’d written “don’t forget the past 5 years, don’t forget me” and kissed it, leaving a nice red lip mark. Oh god. Her lips on my hip. 1 layer: my shirt.
I laughed and turned red. “Yeah cute isn’t it” I said not wanting them to ask further questions.
“Hey, you forgot your bag” She walked up to me and handed me my bag. Her fingers grazed my wrist, leaving electricity running through my veins.
“Thanks” I said, i didn’t know what to say so i just left it.
“Sorry, she’s being weird bro” Chloe said to her. “Probably about that” She pointed to the note on my shirt, the one i’d just gotten embarrassed over. “Do you know who wrote it?”
“Hah nope, looks like you’ve got yourself an admirer though, i mean come on, kissing someone’s hip is intimate” She laughed, everyone else laughed; i laughed although i don’t know why.
Why did she lie about it? I mouthed ‘thanks’ and she walked off. Hey she was smarter than she looked. She worked out i didn’t want anyone to know about us. Well there was no ‘us’.
I slipped a piece of paper out of my pocket and pretended it was hers. “Hey wait up, you dropped something”. I walked up to her; we were far enough away for my friends not to hear us so i spoke.
“We’re going to Connor’s at about 7ish, come yeah?” I said to her
She smiled “Yeah, why not. Alcohol allowed?”
“Of course, and his parents are out so i asked him if me and Chloe could sleep in their room you could probably share if you wanted”
“Mmm i’ll see how the night goes” She smiled reassuringly.
I nodded and walked back to my friends, we sat, Chloe seemed tense so i found out her mother wasn’t well. I comforted her and she said she’s still going to Connors so i was happy enough.
We walked up to the gates and it was one of those cheesy American dream moments; everyone started clapping and cheering and then the bell went.
We were free.
We went to town and bought shoes and vodka, the best kind of shopping in my opinion. I text my dad and he picked us up, we all went home and decided to meet at Connor’s. I used to date him and i knew it would be awkward going alone, but all i wanted was a hot shower and Monster. I got both pretty quick. My little sister, Rachel, kept pestering me, i think i annoyed her but wasn’t certain until she threw all of my nail varnish out of my vanity case. Fucking grrrreat ugh. I text Chloe and told her i was setting off. I hated being alone at parties, everywhere else i was fine. I got my dad to drop me off and people were already stood outside smoking. I asked Harry for a fag, he didn’t want to but we were best friends, how could he refuse. I didn’t even smoke, tonight i just felt like it. I lit it and stood outside for a bit, chatting with Harry and Sam, then Chloe walked up the drive.
“What are you doing Hope?” She looked angry
“Smoking, chill out, how’s your mam?”
“Put it out bro, she’s fine yeah thanks for asking” She smiled. I took one last drag and threw it on the floor.
“Can we get something to eat?” I asked
“I just got here, besides the kebab shop is at the end of the road and this road is too fucking long”
“Fine, get me a drink; i’ll come in in a minute”
She walked inside, i asked Harry for a couple of cigarettes and i put them in my pocket, I could sense I’d need them later. I walked inside and was greeted by a half empty bottle of vodka.
“Here’s to leaving school” Sam said, raising his glass, i hit my bottle off it and swallowed some.
