On My Own

Chapter 3: Time to do what I've got to do

Liv P.O.V:
After putting my phone down I couldn't help but feel guilty about my conversation with Asher.
He seemed so happy. He seemed to think I was coming back but I couldn't. With my other half gone there is no way I could come back.
I don't even know if he remembers but it's my birthday today. But It's officially been four years now.
Im offiicially 21,the same age as Olly when he left. I've been waiting for this day for ages.
I stared at myself in the mirror admiring my outfit. I was no longer wearing the lifeless dark,demonic outfits I had been wearing for the past few years.I was wearing something beautiful.It was an elegant champagne dress which fit on my body like a glove from my shoulders to my toes. It was perfect! Of course it was-Olly had given it to me.It remained at the back of my cupboard untouched until today. Today was the only day I'd be able to wear it.
Olly had broken his promise but I was not breaking mine. I promised him that he will see me in this dress and I will make sure of it.
I've tried. It may not have seemed like it ,but I have tried. All these months, I've been trying to get myself together but I just can't. Mum and Dad gave up on me long ago just like everyody else. The only person who didn't was Asher. He has patiently waited by my side till this very day.
I have been a burden to him and I can't help but hate myself for it.

I isolated myself from everything creating a world of my own.
My imagination put me in a place with Olly still waking me up like he used to everyday, it put me in a place of pure bliss. It seems to me more of a memory than imagination but there is only so long I can live with denial. He is gone.
This imagination isn't enough to bring him back but I still need him.
I need Olly.
It is now time to do what I have got to do..