"And that's why I ask you to forget what happened between us"
There would be no more moments between us.
Our laughter would remain only a blurry memory.
Our looks wouldn't met anymore and our smiles wouldn't be born anymore, slowly, soon after.
Your lips wouldn't touch mine anymore.
And you wouldn't have wanted talk to me anymore.
If I didn't listen to Franklin at this time, we would been together, maybe playing video games; ready for every challenge that would have been ahead of us.
But The Fault is mine.
Was I wrong to want more and had nothing?
Was I wrong to want something beyond a simple friendship?
Was I wrong to leave the group?
That group with I had spent a thousand adventures, the group of my best friends, the ones that had always been to me.
Conor why did you do this to me?
Why did you accept me in your arms and then you dropped me?
After all, it wasn't you at take the first step?
A hug, a kiss, what you want.
You took me and like a marionette you made me fall in love, then you break my heart.
And I think I can't smile without you, that I can't win without you encouraging me, that I can't live anymore.
Sometimes I wonder how it could have gone, If nothing had happened.
Maybe I would still be in volleyball training and I would have a boyfriend.
I can only say that I miss all of you, by your way of kissing me, in your way of being a friend despite everything.
I can only tell you that I'm sorry.
I'm sorry, because I will continue to love you in silence.
I'm sorry to feel something more, too much.
I'm sorry.
I hope you're fine without my company.
For me you aren't a memory, but a hope in a world of insecurities.
I love you Conor.
Always and forever yours, Ash.
