darker days

sneak peak?

When you are in the darkest of your days, you need those closest to you, the most. But when you are in the darkest of your days, you push those closest to you, the farthest.

People who matter most to you, you push them the farthest. And when you are equally important to them, when they are not willing to let go easily, when they hold on a little too tight, you just need to give them that extra push.

So you push them a little harder, a little farther.

When I pushed her away, I watched as the light left her eyes. I watched as she tried to hold back her tears and I watched as she tried to pull herself together. I watched as she tried faking not being hurt by what I had just told her and terribly failing. I watched as she moved her lips, trying to form words but none came out. I watched as she tried to say something, anything in return, but failed. I watched as she failed talking to me. She had never before failed talking with me about anything and everything. But that day, I watched her shut herself out, from me, before my own eyes, while all I did was provoke her further. And fuck, did it hurt.

But I couldn't blame her, could I? After all I was the one who had taken the plunge. I was the one who had suggested for us to talk no longer. I was the one who had shut her out first.

And to this day, I regret that; I regret that with every breath I take.

But, I kind of had no other option either.

A/N

Hi guysss. So this is just, idk, I guess, a little sneak peak into the story? This might be a part of a later chapter somewhere, I don't know lol; I haven't actually written the entire thing yet. Currently I lack motivation and need SO SO much of it. I'll try writing the first chapter as soon as possible. Meanwhile if you read this, can you all please just tell me what you thought about this little sneak peak thing. Feedback is the greatest motivation one can have. Thankyouu all x
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