her

• five •

"Don't go, Andrii. Please. I like having you here. You're house isn't safe. You can't go there. We're graduating next year. We can live together. I have money saved up, my mom can help us. I want you safe. I care about you. I really like you Andy. Sit down."

Sigh. I pull out the chair I was sat in before.

"No, next to me. Please?"

"Okay." I walk around the table and sit next to her. She pulls my chair a little closer to me and holds my hand. Why is she so warm? It hurts my heart. I'm cold all the time. Dani save me.

"You're hands- hands are really warm."

"Yeah. Yours are so cold." She pulls me into a tight hug and we stay like that for a few moments.

"Don't let go, Dani. Uh, please?"

"I wasn't planning on it."

"Thank you. For everything. Um, can I confess?"

She pulls away to look at me once again, but my hands are in hers. "Of course. You don't have to ask. I'll listen to anything you say. And I'll try to help too. What is it?"

I take a few deep breaths before I look at her. Oh boy, I'm doing this. I can't believe I'm doing this.

"I really like you...I go to the library, cause it's my safe place. I have no where else to go. I sit there and write all sad. But then I saw you. And I felt safe again. Looking at you makes me forget everything. Makes me even forget my name sometimes. I'm gonna sound sappy and pathetic, but I never um, felt like this around someone before. I never said this to anyone before because I don't trust anyone. But your eyes, you're beautiful face, oh god. I think about you all the time. I wrote about you when I'm in the library, I write about you all the damn time...I love you, Dani."

"Me too. I love you too."

"I-what? Really?"

"Yeah. I don't wanna sound like a weirdo but when we were in the hospital, I woke up before you. And I couldn't help but stare. You look really pretty when you sleep. I mean not just sleeping, you look hot doing anything. And at the library," no way "when you're busy writing, I sit there behind all my books and draw you. The way your hair falls on your face when you're focused and writing in your book. Do you wanna know why I'm always at the library studying?"

"No, why?"

"It's silly, but, I keep failing my tests and exams."

"Oh no. Why are you failing?"

"You. When I'm in class learning or taking quizzes, you're constantly in my mind. I sketch your face on my pages instead of writing notes."

"Stop, I'm blushing. Do you really mean that?"

"Yeah, I-uh, I love you. You're not like the other girls in school. My ex, who've I've been with for like 11 months, cheated on me. With a guy. So, I don't trust bisexual girls anymore. That sounds terrible I don't know how else to phrase that. Sorry. Um, you ever dated anyone?"

"Wait, are you asking me out?"

"Oh, um..sure. Do you wanna-"

"Yes!"
Her smile is beautiful. I hesitantly kiss her cheek and we giggle together.

"Do you wanna stay over? It's already the weekend and I think we have a week off right?"

"Yeah. I'd love to stay over. Can I write this down though?"

She laughs. "Yeah, you can write while I clean up. And we can watch tv or something too."

She grabs our dirty dishes. She looks like a pretty waitress or something.

"Hey, Dani?"

She turns around and places the dishes in the sink.

"Yeah?"

"I love you."

"Come here." She points to me.

"Yeah?" I stand in front of her. I'm nervous, what could she need?

She holds my cheeks and smiles. "Your cheeks are warm. Your blushing really hard."

I shut my eyes. I feel like crying. I'm in heaven. I feel something soft against my lips. My eyes spark open I'm shock, but immediately close again as I sink into the kiss and return the love.

"Wow..."

"Go write all about it." She smiles and points to the living room.

"I-I-I will..."

Holy shit. I just had my first kiss. My first love. My first girlfriend, my first everything. Oh god, Andrii, this is amazing.