It felt as though I were falling. My heart beats faster...faster..faster. I look down at my legs which are dangling one hundred stories high over the concrete sidewalk. I gaze down at the crowds chanting my name. "Just do It you coward' one man blurts out. I grasp the ledge as tight as I can and close my eyes. Ice cold air penetrates through my usual outfit; a lacy white tank top and pair of plain black H&M skinny jeans. Just as the bitter taste of gin conquers my mouth, I hear a voice. Someone's behind me. I let go of the empty glass bottle and look back down.
"Don't do it" the voice cries behind me. It wasn't any ordinary voice. It was one of those voices which feels like a nice warm hug. A voice that sounded sincere. A voice that made me turn around to see who it was. My eyes scan the thin, fragile figure. Starting at his worn out black vans, to his ripped up jeans and his MCR tee. His chopped up black hair covers his ocean blue eyes and a long scary looking scar covers his left cheek.
"I think i've seen you before.." I mumble, I knew exactly who he was. It was Chase.
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I've had a crush on him ever since 1st grade, when we would play cops and robbers together at recess every day. We grew up together and we grew closer every year, and In 8th grade, We finally confessed our "love". We loved each other.. or at least I thought we did. But it all changed a year later, the morning of my 14th birthday. I still remember that day like it was yesterday. I was texting our friend Annie about my birthday party, and she added him to the group. The first message Chase wrote was the one that killed me. It felt like someone had stabbed a knife in my back, and left me alone letting me bleed to death. He wrote.. "I never loved you." For the first time in a decade, my pillow drowned in tears.
"Why?" I kept asking. "What did I do?" I waited and waited but there was no reply. I asked Annie for help but little did I know she dreaded my existence as well. A week later I saw them both making out against my locker on my way to History. I wanted to ignore them but I needed my binder. "Uh excuse me.." I forced myself to say, but I was too quiet. "Excuse Me!" I shouted this time.
"Shut up" Allie barked, as she pulled away from Chase. She pulled out a gun from the inner pocket of her leather jacket and pointed it right at my face "Die" she said. I don't remember what happened next, but that moment Is all I could think about since.
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"It's Chase.." he says, after a long pause.
"Oh.." I muffle. "Why are you here..? Did you want to kill me yourself?..."
"NO!" He shouted. "I... I'm sorry for everything I've ever done. I tried talking to you at school but you pushed me away, and so I followed you.."
I wanted never to wake again. But, like Prometheus, I knew I would awaken, again and again, endlessly, as time spilled out its onslaught of minutes and moments and hours and ages.
