Vigilant ~ ED

III

¥Jemma¥

I walk to the lunch room with my friend Yasmin and her boyfriend Nate. I never really liked hanging out with her when Nate was around because she never really paid attention to me.

I will admit, I get jealous.

The stronger and longer their relationship gets, the more I disappear.

I've always wondered what love felt like. Does it drive you crazy, does it make you get that type of high?

I try to stay away from those things because I know what I'm capable of and incapable of. I'm incapable of being loved by someone but capable of loving something.

I'm scared I'm going to fuck something up and I'll feel like shit for the rest of my life basically.

I hate not doing things the right way on the first time. I need to be perfect. If I can't share my "perfectness" with someone then I want to be my own kind of special.

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We sit down at our table and I skip lunch. It's disgusting and I hate processed food.

It's like food for animals, except we're human.

Well....Some of us in this school.

I pull my phone out and go through all my social medias, ignoring the two love birds in front of me.

I need to find out a way to be priority one again.

Ok stop Jemma, don't be "that friend", just enjoy her happiness.

"Mhm?" I say looking up from my cracked screen.

"I said, are you 'gonna join us with Austria?" Yasmin asked with a cocked eyebrow, getting up holding onto Nate.

Austria was the "popular girl" in my grade. Me and her don't really get along because we got into a argument of whose best friend was whose.

I know, childish but whatever.

I apologised and she excepted it but we still are uneasy.

"No it's fine." I look back down at my phone feeling sad again.

I don't have any other friends and I'm afraid I'm slipping away from this one.

They all end the same.

I have nothing else to turn to.

¥Ethan¥

"Just make sure to change it up a bit."

I copied Aaron's homework for seventh period biochemistry. I forgot to do it and I honestly want to do good in that class. I enjoy it.

You learn a lot of interesting shit that you don't need later in life though.

I sign the date and put it back in my binder.

I see Grayson come in with the principle behind him and I knew he was in trouble...., again.

Grayson never knew what "Being a good kid," meant.

He sits down in front of me with a smirk.

"What?" Alex says, taking a drink of his flavoured water.

"I was caught passing a note to Jessica Souders that said, "Let me eat that cake," I now have two days detention plus a day of in school suspension."

We all start laughing and I high five him.

He never knew when to be good but he was funny when he was in trouble.

"Why must you?" Aaron says, still giggling.

"Dude she has a fat ass, It's not like I'm NOT going to ask."

¥Jemma¥

I heard a bunch of laughing in the corner diagonal behind from me.

I turn my head and my shoulders a little and it's Grayson and his crew. I notice Ethan laughing too, showing his perfectly white straight teeth.

I wish it could be me making him smile and laugh.

He's too gorgeous it hurts.

¥Ethan¥

"Special someone looking at you."

I look behind Jack and see Jemma starring intensely at me.

She looked tense, almost as if, if she was studying me like she does her papers.

She finally notices that I'm starring at her and she turns away.

Damn it!

She looked too good to not look.

I notice nobody else at her table a-

"Go talk to her." Jack says.

"Yeah, if you don't, I will."

I glare at Jack and punch him in the shoulder.

"I look like a huge weird potato." I say slouching.

"Maybe she likes weird potatoes with faded hair dye." Jack says, showing off his dimples.

Those dimples is what get's him the good.

No homo, but I would date him too if I was a girl.

"Just go talk to her and don't be a pussy."

Grayson's a smartass and a bit cocky half the time but it always made you crack a smile.

I take in a deep breath and fix my crazy uncut hair. I nod at my boys and get up.

I start to get nervous and think of ways to not stutter when I open my mouth.

I'm right behind her and I gently tap her shoulder that had her beautiful blue hair on top of it.

She turns around and seemed to have cracked a small smile.

Awe, How fucking cute

"U-umm uh hi,"

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I wish someone liked me as much as Ethan likes her kms😩

The girl up top is Yasmin btw