Love is just Lust

The Place Close like Home

Memories. Not just any happy memories, but hurtful ones.

Flashback

"You sick slut!" he says with a hurtful tone in his voice.

"I wasn't the one sleeping with someone new while we were together" I say as tears were at the brim of my eyes.

No, you are way stronger than this. I bit my bottom lip to prevent any tears from falling further.

"VICTORIA FUCKING HUGHES, I DON'T KNOW WHY I CLAIMED MY LOVE TO YOU EVEN WHEN THOSE UGLY STRIPPERS AT THE CLUB WERE BETTER THAN YOU!" he screamed from only true anger and hatred.

"Get out now." I try my best to keep my voice steady and calm.

I hold back my tears and anger as I see him for the last time. The thought to be my future husband has walked out on me.

I can't seem to find the strength to stand, so I collapse onto the cold hardwood floor hysterically crying for the rest of the night.

It didn't even look like my words affected him, but his words caused me a wound that I couldn't deal with.

I wanted to make him feel what I felt...

All we did in our relationship was fight, sure in the beginning we thought it was love.

-End-

I start to cry on my bed from the memory. The memory that made me the way I am today.

Who am I?

I am the girl who only cares about one person, her mom and nothing or no one else. I'm the girl who cries herself to sleep at night, but forces herself to be happy with others around. I'm the girl who doesn't have a dad like figure to help her be strong.

Where's my mom?

She's still here. I don't know if that's a good or bad thing. She wakes up, goes to work, comes home, gives me money, locks herself in her room, and eats the required amount to survive, but not to live.

Ever since my dad died from cancer last year, she has never been the caring and loving mom.

Yeah it sucks, but I'm 17 and a senior so I have to focus on school. Well actually I never went to public school and been home schooled all my life. It was only because I spent all my time next to my dad's hospital bed rather than being a normal kid.

Life is life. Sometimes it sucks.