Everybody always has what If moments.
What If didn't answer that call...
What If I didn't take that second drink...
What If I didn't run that stop light...
Mine Is what If I didn't take all those pills. Growing up In Las Vegas, with both of my parents being actors, I was know to be quite the drama queen. Looking back at It now I don't know If It was so much me being a drama queen. I think I just wanted people to noticed me.
I always did the craziest stuff to get anyone who would look at me attention. One time while my parents were finally home I got them to go outside with me; I was so happy. But then i noticed both of them on their phones, I sneaked over to the bridge, called the they're names and jumped. I did it all the time when I was home alone, but they didn't know that. They both ran over so fast, and were screaming my name. And I just waved up to them from the water laughing my head off.
So I guess you could call me an attention seeker, though others called me something worse. Freshmen year of high school you could say things took a turn for the worst. At the time my best friend was Amaya. She was a partyer, so it didn't surprise me when she invited me to a party. I said no because we had this huge test coming up and I had to study. The next day at school she didn't show up, or the day after that and the one after that. There were rumors going around that the "party" was actually just the football team. And it doesn't take much to guess what happened .
And all I can think Is what If I would have went with her. I thought at this point my life could get any worse, I was wrong. Amaya never came back to school, Everybody started Ignoring me, and I found out that the football did have something to do with Amaya. One day I was feeling especially miserable, after I got Into a fight with one of the Football players girlfriend. I guess she didn't like the fact that I called her boyfriend a rapist.
I went home that day to an empty, dark house, like I always do. But today I was happy It was empty. I didn't want anyone to be there for what I was about to do. I Went Into my bathroom took out all of my sleeping pills and downed them all. Now I'm lying in my bed waiting for my eternally sleep to take me over. All I can think Is what If....
