After

Chapter 15 - After Threat

A/N: I thought it was fair to say it before:

WARNING: NON CONSENSUAL SEXUAL CONTENT AHEAD.

It won't be as dense as my warning make it seems, but you've been warned either way. Don't throw stones at me; it's all for the sake of the story.

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On that Saturday night, I couldn't sleep.

On Sunday, he stayed with me the entire day and night. Filling my head with his distorted words. He observed me the whole dusk, staring at me with that prideful smirk. Many would say that He Tian's smirk is the same, but no one knows him like I do. He is different. He isn't rotten like his older brother. I can trust He Tian, he would never disappoint me.

On Monday, my body gave up. The exhaustion overcame my willpower and I passed out. That day my lullaby was made of screams. I didn't know what was happening; all I could hear was Jian Yi begging for it to stop. He repeated this single word over a hundred times before I lost consciousness.

I only woke up on Wednesday, at least they said it was Wednesday. I was also in a different place than before. Be he was still there. Looking at me. Poisoning me. His purpose was solely shatter my hope into a million pieces.

But he never touched me.

On Thursday, I prayed. I prayed to all gods I've ever heard of. I prayed to all saints I could remember. I prayed to mythical creatures and pagan spirits. I pleaded to the universe.

I knew what that day meant. I knew that I hadn't given her money. I knew she couldn't pay this week's charge. I knew she would be beaten. I knew I was powerless.

But when I heard him saying He Tian was calling me, that little flame sparkled again, and I shoved my fears aside, doing the only thing I could do.

I begged.

I begged to the only person that was able to help me.

I begged to He Tian.

The next thing that happened was something I needed to bear with. Without letting a single sound come out of my mouth, I felt my arms being broken in at least four different places. I would've fainted due the pain, but the hope made me stronger.

It didn't matter if I was hurt, what mattered was that my mom was safe. She was going to be alright.

He came back after a few minutes. I've never seen him so pissed off before. And even though I'm not the kind of person who regrets saying what come to my mind first, that moment I knew I was ruined. When he said all those atrocities, I wished, for the first time, that I wasn't so blunt.

"I tried to be nice with you, boy, I sure did. But I won't be nice anymore. Do you know what happened to Jian Yi? He got raped. Over and over, and over, and over. Until She Li was tired. And then he let the other underlings do what they wanted to him. He's looking like trash right now."

I didn't know. I didn't know that was the reason why Jian Yi was so desperately crying for mercy. And that was my fault. If Jian Yi hadn't appeared that night, if Jian Yi hadn't helped me, he would be alright. He would probably be derping around school with Zhan Zheng Xi and He Tian. But I had to pick a fight with him, I had to make him aware of my existence.

It was my fault.

"But I didn't lay a single finger on you. Up until now. And now you'll suffer, Mo Guan Shan. I'll make sure you'll go through hell. I'll make you wish you were dead. But you'll be alive. Alive and completely aware of everything that will happen to you. You'll regret every single word you've ever said to me."