What has changed,
My life used to be partly meaningful,
I would read for hours on end,
Draw with out a care in the world,
Now I can't draw for shit.
I can barely pick up a book and think about reading it,
Funny I used to be able to read 2 pages a minute,
I finished 450 pages in 3 and a half hours. Now everything has changed,
450 pages seems as if eternity is short,
Focus is short,
I used to be able to name everything,
Make lists and lists of scholarly things,
Get perfect A's now my grades spell caaabaa, like really the c is in physical science which I'm great at.
Science is my best subject!!!! I got to skip a year because I'm good at it!!!
I DO NOT enjoy these teenage years! I want to be me once more, absorbing everything I can, teaching everyone how to do the math, helping everyone, I wish this crippling depression be gone and this puberty shit banished, screams echo in my head! Why can't I be normal again, why can't I be me,
The me I used to be,
I'm sick of being this silhouette,
This shell of me,
I wish for it to burn in flames and release me from the shackles it has made of my pride,
Nothing peaks my interests anymore,
I want to be able to enjoy nature and learning and tests!! I used to love tests with a love incomparable,
Who even likes tests!
I did!
I used to be an amazing person,
Now I wish I could just be that person.
But I just sit here waiting to be me again,
Wondering if it's ever going to happen.
