I dried my tears as i walked into class.
I was annoyed that I couldn't bring myself to tell Tyler what actually happened and what I saw.
The teacher began his lecture while I stared of into space.
My mind churned with the images of the cold body that was my mothers. My skin is cold now, all the time. My eyes... well lets just say, I need sleep. My mouth throbs more and more as time goes on.
I wanted to tell Tyler the truth. I wanted to, but I can't. He wouldn't quite understand the pain and grief.
Tyler's life is fairly good, his mom and dad get along perfectly. His little sister, Kayla, is a sweetheart. How much better can it get?
I looked around the room and then the teacher who lectured on and on. My emotions are out of wack. I clenched my fist to watch my knuckles turn white. I watched the trees outside, again. They seemed to be dancing in the wind. The branches swaying side to side. Leaves flickering down.
RING RING RING!!!!
School is over, I can go home.. but do I really want too?
Walking down the hall, I took out my phone and blasted my music, hoping it would distract me from the currupt thoughts.
I walked in a fast pace trying to get to my car quickly. Ducking and swerving through the crowd. I looked down at my feet, I didn't want eye contact; Eye contact always starts an unwanted conversation. Meanwhile, I bumped into the "popular" girl, she had "bullied" me since third grade. great I thought. I was starting to get pissed by her jeer comments. I don't have time for this, I can't.
"Watch were you're going! you little whore", Katy snickered. Yeah yeah. Keep talking. I thought rolling my eyes
"You know you shouldn't talk about your self that way Katy" I smirked with my face down towards the floor, letting my bangs cover my eyes.
As seconds went on her bitches arrived.
"yea right, you just wish you could be me. I mean, come on I am hot. Oh, wait that's something you wouldn't know of. " Her friends laughed, making them look like they are Katy wanna be's.
"suuuree. Now if you don't mind could you stop talking you might start the zombie apocalypse by your shitty ass breath," rolling my eyes I tried to walk away but her "army" of bitches surrounded me.
"What did you just say to me?! honey, honey," she said sympathetically sarcastic, her voice is like nails on a chalkboard, " at least I'm not the one hanging out with the high school man slut." she grinned at me.
"well that's perfectly fine, honey." I said mocking her stupid high pitched voice, " Also he doesn't have AIDS and the only reason you think that is because you have them. you want another slut to share them with. To be friends with, but not with that fishy smelling thing" At my response she pushed me on the ground.
I laughed at her weak, scrawny arms flinging at me. I got up and smiled in her face. My adrenaline was starting to flow threw my veins. It was like fire burning threw wood, so easy to engulf. I didn't need a fight, i wanted one.
"Was that supposed to hurt?" looking flatly at her, I giggled.
"Bitch, fuck you! why don't you go cut yourself?! I mean its bad enough your ugly and your mom killed herself because of you!"
she yelled at me wile getting in my face. Her ears turned red with anger.
"you know something, you're right, maybe I should... but on another thought why don't I just beat the shit out of you until you cry for your mommy!'
I pushed her, causing her to fly to the ground, I could hear her head smack into the ground. While she groaned in pain I walked slowly up to her, "die in hell bitch" I grabbed her hand and twisted it causing it to snap. She screamed in pain while sobbing on the ground.
My anger turns me into another person, I hate it but I love it. My mind shuts down and I see red flashing lights. There is a legend saying, the wolf has power with anger, anger with power, but which controls the other.. no one knows.
I walked furiously to my car, noticing her friend had called the cops.
I fumbled to get my key. My anger tingling throughout my body..
while driving, I felt hot tears roll down my cheeks. I gasped for breath trying to maintain my self. My mind trembled with the thought.... Did it happen because of me?
whats wrong with me?!........
