Elnella || Elmo & Janella || oneshots [DISCONTINUED]

five

Title: I Can't Remember To Forget You

We always met each other's eyes.

We barely talk to each other.

I know your name, and you know mine as well.

We've been classmates for 7 months now.

The school year is ending.

I don't have much time to get to know you more.

But the circumstances are just right.

You and I both participated to be volunteers for the last event of the school year.

I got excited and scared at the same time.

Excited because, finally I can interact with you.

Scared because it might not turn out the way I expected it to be.

[The day we got the chance to be together, just the two of us.]

We don't really care about the event anymore.

We were just right there, standing right next to

each other.

I don't know what to say.

Though you were quiet as hell, you never fail to make me feel that I'm not alone.

Alas, for almost an hour or so.. the awkward zone between us faded away.

You began to talk about things, that put me into ease.

We laugh at things that aren't even funny for other people.

It's like we have our own little world.

We also talked about things that are somehow personal.

That night, I slept with a smile on my lips.

You made my heart ache out of excitement for the next day.

[The following day. The last day of us being together.]

You were the same just as the day before.

Due to my stupid actions, the world ment for just us two dissolved into thin air.

I tried to get it back.

But you already built a great wall, greater than China's, between us.

Though I can still communicate with you, you wouldn't let me in anymore.

I found out small things about you.

Such as, founding out that you like color yellow.

That's just it.

We didn't laugh the same way like yesterday.

We didn't talk much the same way like yesterday.

You and I were different from yesterday.

A couple of hours passed by, but nothing magical happened.

The volunteer duties ended.

We part ways without a word of farewell to each other.

I hate it.

I hate the way it turned out.

Days passed by but I'm still not over about everything we had for 2 days.

You don't know how much I wanted to be with you again.

The itch of wanting to talk to you kills me.

But I just can't.

You already got back into your own world.

The world without me.

While here I am, thinking about the possibilities and probabilities of being with you.

What is with you?

When will I stop thinking about you?

Where do I go from here?

Why can't I act the way you are normally acting?

Who am I to you?

*sigh* It's just me, isn't it?

You don't feel the same way as mine.

We barely met each other's eyes anymore.

I told myself that I shouldn't invest my feelings for someone like you.

For you are someone who is unpredictable and unreadable.

I can't read you.

"I just can't crack your code."

And I can't even feel you having a slight feelings for me.

'Cause I know you've already got someone else in your eyes.

It's not me, it will never be me.

You don't have to like me back.

But don't push me away.

Just give me time to dissolve this feeling.

Make me realize that there are more

deserving of my attention for you.

I'm still not over you, Elmo. xx

I don't know how much I can take ~

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