My Diary

February 19, 2014

Hey! so let me start by saying i am not at all a professional writer, although maybe one day i will be, so i will start by telling you a little about myself. 

My name is Megan, i am 19 years old and i work at a local fast food restaurant. My life used to be all shits and giggles, but lately ive been struggling with all the normal teenage crap you go through. 

remember in gradeschool when you used to look up at the highschoolers and think "wow! i wish i could be them!" ? yea, and then you hit high school and you saw all the college students running around, enjoying all their big parties and their relationships and their cars? 

yea well, im at the point where i just want to go back to gradeschool and tell my young self to shut it and enjoy what ive got while ive still got it! then again if i ever did that my gradeschool self probably would have told me i had no idea what i was talking about. 

gradeschool sucked for me, well no not the whole time, just grade 5 till grade 8. 

you see when i was just starting out in school i went to St.Loius. EVERYBODY was friends there and it was nearly impossible to be a loner. i had 3 best friends and i was never more happy in my entire life. 

but then some tragic news came through that my grandfather was dying of cancer, so in an act to help my grandparents out, we moved in with them and i switched to a new school. i never had problems making friends, at least i never thought i did, until i switched to St.Katherine's. 

i was in grade 5 when i started the new year at St,K. i was nervous as hell, i mean country kids were different than the city kids. right? i remmeber that day like it was yesterday, my mom had driven us to school rather than taking the bus. i wore a pair of overalls, which i dont think i ever wore again after that day haha. 

i was apporached by a girl named Katrina who showed me around the play yard and introduced me to some friends, who later became the best friends a girl could ever ask for. 

it was a week into the new school year at a new school that i had learned that i was the fat girl in the class, which of course lead to bullying by the other kids. i was strong tho. i would give the other students the benefit of the doubt and just let it roll off my shoulders until one particular day.. 

i went to school one day with really sharp pains in my hip... my mom thought it was growing pain and honestly thats pretty much what it felt like, so i went to school anyway. it hurt to walk, and i was limping like crazy but it wasnt going to stop me from going to school, after all.. Brandon was gunna be there :$ (Childhood crush, you prob wont hear about him again) 

it was gym class and we were playing soccer baseball ( a combination of the two sports) and it was my turn to kick/bat. the ball was pitched for me and as i went to kick, my hip nealry gave out on me. i missed the ball and fell straight to my ass. i remember kids laughing at me and pointing. 

"Haha fatty fell!" (yea kids are mean) 

the worse part was that my teacher told me to brush it off and get up.. but i couldnt.i couldnt get up at all, the pain was excrutiating. my mom picked me up and we went to get xrays done. they put me in cruches while we waited for the results. 3 days in cruches, and they called with the results. They DEMANDED i get put in a wheelchair and i was scheduled with emergency surgery. 

i had this rare/ not so rare form called Slipped Epiphysis. google it. lol

okay so now kids were calling me fat and saying it was the reason i was in the wheelchair to begin with... 

"Looks like fatty cant carry all that weight" .. dont feel bad for me.. feel bad for the jackass who said it... i ran him over LOL 

so you can see why i hated gradeschool all together. i went from a happy life with friends all around me, to this shithole of a life that i felt like i was never gunna get out of. 

High school was better.. kinda..