One Direction BSM (Preferences)

#1: you have an eating disorder

WARNING: This contains very sensitive material if you are easily triggered please don't read this. I have no intentions of upsetting anyone and I really hope this doesn't negatively affect anyone.  I have personally suffered from three different eating disorders in my life so I know what I'm talking about here and I'm sorry if this upsets you.

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Harry:

     

       You had just eaten a nice dinner with all the boys, this was the first day home from tour.  Harry was giving you weird looks the whole time, he was looking at you up and down.  Over the three months him and all the boys were on tour you had lost 30 pounds.  You never told anyone, but you were suffering from anorexia and bulimia nervousa.  Right after you were done eating you excused yourself to go to the bathroom. When you got into the bathroom you chugged a can of diet coke, then did 20 jumping jacks.  This helped the food come up quikly.  You hovered over the toilet bowl, and hugged it with one hand.  This toliet seemed like your only friend.  You felt like a nasty, disgusting girl who was too fat to live.  You put your pointer and ring fingers together and wet them in the sink then turned back to the toilet and shoved them down your throat.  You started gagging and tears were flowing from your eyes.

        Nothing was coming up so you shoved your fingers further down, most of your hand was in your mouth.  Finally your dinner came up and went into the bowl, you kept going though.  That wasn't enough, you still felt something in your stomach.  You gagged but nothing came up.  You were to focused on purging to notice someone had opened the door. 

        "Harry! Get in here!" You hear Liam scream behind you.  Harry rushed in and saw you hugging the toilet bowl.  You banged your head against the wall, why didn't you lock the door. Harry rapped his arms around you waist and pulled you away from the toilet.  He dragged you out the bathroom and into the living room he placed you down on the couch.  The other boys turned their heads from the table and moved over to the couch to see what was going on.

        Harry pinned you down on the couch so you couldn't run, "Why did you do that?! Why would you do that to your self?!" He shouted at you, he was tearing up.  You were now balling your eyes out you replied with, "Leave me alone, let me go!" He didn't budge he just said quietly and more calm choking through tears, "why?" 

        "Because I'm so fat, I'm disgusting, I'll never be good enough.  I need to be perfection and not a pound more," You shouted back at him, still crying.  He stopped pinning you down and he sat on the floor by the couch.  You curled up in a ball crying.  You felt arms rap around you and tears fall on you. 

        "Please stop this, you are already perfect, please stop hurting your self," Harry whispered into your ear.

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Niall:

       "I know something's wrong with you, I haven't seen you smile once since I've been back." Niall said worried.  You shrugged in response.  "You look dead," Niall said sadly.

      "Then stop looking," you replied not making eye contact, turning away from the conversation.

       Niall grabbed your arm and turned you back to him, "you never eat, it's like your anorexic or something!" He shouted at you.

      A tear rolled down your cheek and you quickly wiped it away, then dropped your head down and gazed at the floor.  "No... your not....please..just tell me why," Niall tripped over his words but finally spat out.