The ironic thing is the Soul loves toxicity
I mean it was injected into our veins from the onset of time until infinity
Negativity always says you'll never get rid of me
...Tell me that you'll never forget me...
No choice so we embrace it like the bad cousin who fails school and sells drugs like a family inequity
Yet we look in the face of it and see resemblance
The only difference is that some were born with a tongue acquitting
The sins in our blood and some were born liiicking
It up from Jesus' temples
...Don't pretend you don't love me...
The white archangel gets her wings dirty in the absence of authority
They cuss like sailors on Noah's ark because the animals aren't listening
And I believe sometimes the disciples went to Sodom and Gomorrah to see beautiful whores
Drink moonshine until their liver was torn, everyone need an ..outlet
He asked me, why would I behave? Thunderstorms violently shoot down droplets
Like small bullets, piercing your veil—I want to see you cry because I know I can make you smile again
And you realize character flaws aren't permanent
If you wanted to do the right thing all the time you would exist in space and time to do so
But I don't see you in spirit, I see you in real clothes
I see you with 10 fingers and 10 toes, compared to others being you look like a weirdo
...You're here though...
Inside of me is Eden, and my mind is the state of living
after Adam and Eve were told to leave
That's why when you come in me, you leave a seed
A divine thought of total control expelled from my birth canal
Get out, get out! You cannot stay here, get out
Into reality, how sweet!
You will live in a hostile cruel world that will try to kill you
How thoughtful, a place just for me!
...To make you stronger...
I live with a sacred love for Lucifer
There's no other man you should be worried about me talking to...but him
You love the burn of alcohol, the sloppy blissful mess that you become
But when you taste me, you reject the beautiful disaster thing our relationship does
I thought you liked it?
When you inhale sativa, you don't hesitate to become one with the mindful blindness to life's transgressions
But when you inhale me like aroma therapy, you can't seem to believe that this lovely being is also the same thing making your lungs black
Why is that?
I've been rejected, told I shouldn't have been born
I've been called countless bitches and ridiculed about my appearance
I've been punched and beaten
Until this day
All by the person I call Mom
And yet I can still look her in the face and see the broken child that can't love herself
Like a breeze sympathy tickles the hairs on my neck and I caress her as my own
I can still look at her while she isn't looking at me and feel unadulterated warmth in my heart
The integrity of God to genuinely love through your transgressions
Like the universal safety net that is the galaxy after all we are
Fucked up beings
I have reached stages of shock that words can no longer hurt or deter me
Better yet, I reached the stages of pure blindness that I cannot see the picture the words are trying to paint, I see you
I cannot hear words that are screamed out by Ego
...who will recognize me?...
Sure, the training was brutal but the coating armour it gave me is indestructible
...everyone needs to be like me...
But I cannot even express the idea of this without being exiled
Who engulfs the ugly truth of who were by consuming it?
Not ashamed for continuing to love and believing that I deserve it too
Willing to change everything about me, but that shouldn't be a requirement to be loved by you
Initially
I cannot force this strength on you
I cannot force people to understand me, the duality and perfect balance of rage and gracefulness
I cannot make you feel how my heart healed from such pain
But the fact it still fiercely beats for the one who has disrespected the most
Shows that she needed a person like me to be her daughter, a person who knows that everyone deserves to be loved no matter what
Im still trying to find someone to love me even though I am poisoned , tainted, ugly and rough
Im still trying to get God to love the Devil
