forever |j.jk|

18.5

i was woken up at 12pm with our son in front of my door crying. there were a whole bunch of suitcases behind him. i looked back at the boy who was crying his heart out and holding a letter.

"whats wrong?" i asked with a frown on my face.

"mommy told me you were my daddy. *hic* she told me she was going far *hic* and, and she would be gone for a while" he sobbed and held out the letter to me.

I took the letter and told him to come inside my apartment. He sat on the couch and kept on crying so i pulled him into my arms and comforted him. I opened the letter up and continued to read it.

Jungkook my love,

hey jungkookie, as you have seen the boy in front of you is your son, ji-ho. he's four years old and his birthday is on the 3rd of October. I told him about you every now and then and he adores you so much. Please look after him as he is extremely precious to me. to us. I hope your happy with your family and i hope your daughter is as handsome as my child. i haven't told ji-ho yet but i have stage 3 brain cancer. please dont tell him until his a bit older so he can understand. I decided to go somewhere far away and hopefully get better, but if i dont come back please shower him with love as he gets quite sad easily. I can't really remember you too much since I am losing my memories but i know i love you very much. even if we cant be together anymore know that i love you very much. Please look after Ji-ho until i come back (if). 

I love you very much and please look after yourselves,

Hyejin.

Tears fell down and I cried together with Ji-ho. Holding him even harder then ever. Ji-ho was the closest thing i had to Hyejin. We cried together mourning for hyejin. 

I'm so sorry i didnt come sooner. I'm sorry.

I love you, Hyejin