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Vera Jells: Badass, lost hope, abused, broken, guarded, and resigned.  (17 yrs old)

            Vera is all these things and more, of course that is to be expected when you've been bounced from foster home to foster home always being abused. Not always the same person or the same ways, but abuse all the same. She is left on the doorstep of 164 Yoshdale Avenue and for the first eight years of her life she waited to be adopted, being cared for by the staff and protected by the older girls from the mean boys always jeering at her about anything whenever the opportunity presented itself. She was adopted three days after she turned eight and stayed with that family for three years until she complained and presented evidence of the abuse forced on her, the evidence was in the form of showing the bruises all skillfully placed in places that would not be shown, her stomach, chest and legs.

They varied in colour and size, but it was evident that she had been hit many times, not only by fists, but belts and brooms too. So they moved her, problem solved, not quite. Everything was fine for the first week they bought her a cat and loved her as much as they did their own children, but slowly Vera saw a pattern buy and apologise then remove the thing that brought her happiness, first they drowned the cat after giving her just enough time to fall in love with it.

Second were the dolls they bought her that she loved more than anything, she came home one day to find them lying on her bed with the heads detached from the bodies decorated in red nail polish to represent blood. This happened for six years until she was diagnosed as clinically depressed because of the 'incidents' and she was moved to a rehabilitation center for them to 'fix' her fucked up brain. They didn't know, but everyone was waging a hopeless war because it was impossible for her to recover while Paul, the volunteer who was assigned to her raped her every day, once getting her pregnant and repeatedly punching, hitting and kicking her stomach until her body failed to support the baby anymore and she had a miscarriage. So it's no wonder she has closed her heart from the world in an attempt to guard herself from any further pain.