True Colors {mildie}

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Beautiful.
That was one of the many words to describe millie brown. millie and I had been best friends since seventh grade. but it wasn't until the summer of our first year in high school that I realized I loved her as more then a friend.

summer 2016:
i layed on the hot sand of a beach in california. i looked over at my best friend, millie brown. i couldn't help staring at the way she scrunched her nose when she laughed. if only she was laughing about something I said.
"aw millie your laugh is adorable" her boyfriend said.
yep, that's the problem. she has a boyfriend. im pretty sure she is 100% straight. but things do change don't they?

"shut up finn" she said slapping his arm playfully.
he picked her up and put her on his shoulders. she giggled as he ran towards the direction of the ocean.
"why does he get to do that" I muttered.
he waded in the water before tossing her in gently sending her under the water with a big splash.
once she came back up she began splashing him and kicking her feet.
having fun. I thought.
I sighed and continued to watch the couple splashing around in the ocean, just leaving me out completely.
"oh mills, why can't you love me like you love him" I said laying back down.
I closed my eyes, thinking of a world where finn wasn't in the picture, where i had millie to myself.
i soon drifted off to sleep.

"sads, wake up" I heard a voice yell.
"Hmmm no I'm sleepy" I groaned.
"you better wake up sadie sink, your face is as red as your hair" she said giggling.
my eyes fluttered open and i saw millie leaning over me. Her long brown hair ticking my cheek. I laughed as pushed her hair away.
"where's finn?" I asked. not that I really cared, maybe he drowned. that'd be nice.
"right here" finn said picking millie up by her waist.
"Aughh, lemme goooo" she said kicking her legs.
she laughed and reached out her arms for me to help her.
i got up and tried pulling her out of his grasp.
he let go suddenly and we both toppled over into the sand.
she crawled off of me and began playing with the sand. she took a handful and threw it finn.
"dammit mills" he said and laughed. he chased her around the beach with sand throwing a few grains at her every chance he got.

i flopped onto my bed and sighed.
"ugh why does she have to be straight" I wined.
now don't get me wrong, finn is a great guy, he treats her right. he's sweet to her, maybe the best boy-
"ah fuck, he's so lucky" i grow groaned, rolling over on my side.
I picked up a picture of millie and I from the last day of middle school. she had her hands on her hips, she try's to act so sassy, it's adorable because even is she try's she'll always be sweet and innocent.
Maybe one day I'll get the courage to tell her how much she really means to me.