Say You Won't Let Go | Pesy

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PERRIE POV:
"How's this outfit?" My jaw literally dropped. Jesy has the most amazing figure it's stunning

"beautiful!!" I screeched

"the dress hugs your curves perfectly"

I could see jesy blush "aw thanks"

"Want me to buy it for you?" I smiled

"oh, no way! It's too expensive.." jesy looked down at the ground

"you brought me that jumper and shoes last time, now it's my turn to treat you" I nudged at her

"but.."
"no but's jesminda! I'm getting you that gorgeous dress!" I snatched it out of her hand. Jesy laughed "I love how determined you are"

"that's me"

After a long day of shopping, jesy and I just made it to the bus stop. We almost collapsed at our feet because we were so exhausted! We climbed into the bus and of course I took a seat on Jesy's lap.

"as much as I love spending time with you Pez, I think I should go home tonight"

I frowned "why? Can't you stay another night?"

"Perrie ... we have school tomorrow"

I just remembered "oh right! Well I guess you have a point.. if you stay over again we're gonna end up waking up late again!" I chuckled

"exactly" jesy half smiled

"Ugh, here's my stop" jesy groaned

"aw no!" I hopped off Jesy's lap "wait but all your stuff is still at my house"

"that's okay, bring it over to mine on Friday, you're staying over" jesy winked

"oh yay!" I clapped with excitement

"see you tomorrow babe" jesy pulled me into a hug
"bye jesy"

as the bus moved, I watched her walk from the stop to her house. When she was out of my sight, I continued staring out the window. But this time, blankly staring.

When I got home, i got pretty bored without jesy. It's weird, I'm so used to being around her all the time now. I ended up just staying in bed, binge watching random shit on YouTube completely ignoring all the homework I needed to catch up on. You could be surprised how much work you miss out on after just one day of being absent. But unlike jesy, I didn't really care about school. Seeing her was basically the only thing I liked about it.

I looked at the time on my iPad "oh shit" i whispered to myself. It's already 11:40pm and I'm going to have to get up tomorrow. I carelessly threw my iPad onto the end of my bed. I hugged one of my pillows.
oh how I would kill for one if Jesy's hugs right now
I thought to myself.

I loved the way she held me close last night. It was amazing. I flipped over to my back and as usual, questions filled my head

why am I thinking like this?

Were only best friends...

why am I craving her cuddles?

Am I thinking of this in a friend way or could we be so much more?

"Stop!!" I almost shouted at myself.

Im sick of having all these thoughts and questions in my head that I don't know the answer to. I tried peacefully closing my eyes to get to sleep. There was nothing peaceful about what was going through my mind. I decided the only thing I can really do is text jesy. She's the main thing on my mind anyways, what else am I supposed to do? 

11:54pm Perrie: you awake? I can't sleep 😩

11:54pm Jesy: wow, that's surprising! You're always the one who falls asleep in my arms first! What's keeping you up? Xx

11:55pm Perrie: oh, I don't know. Just overthinking shit xx

11:56pm Jesy: what are you overthinking exactly? Call me.

A smile approached my face. My finger hovered over the call button.
I heard her sweet voice "hello"
I still didn't feel better about my emotions

"So what are you overthinking babe? Tell me what's going through your head"

"I just.. don't know how to put it"

"It's okay if you can't explain it or if it's too personal, I'm only asking because I care about you a lot and you know that Perrie"

"I can't sleep without your cuddles" I blurted out.

Why did I say that. That sounds stupid.

"Aww Pez babe! I wish I could be snuggled up next to you right now. I would break out of my house  right now and deport myself to you, but you know how I am..I'm too chicken to break the rules" she rambled

"No, i know. We kinda did break the rules yesterday though"

Jesy forced a laugh through the phone "we kindaaaaa did!!"

There was a bit of silence.

"But hey!" Jesy exclaimed "you're coming over this Friday so we'll have heaps of time for cuddles! And it's already 12:01am so we're seeing eachother today!"

My mood lightened a little bit. I didn't want to keep jesy up with my stupid problems so I said goodnight to her. Even though I didn't have her with me, somehow that phone call lifted me and resulted me in falling asleep in a happier, less stressed mood.

A bit of a longer one :)
Let me know if you like it x

-G