A U T H O R ' S N O T E
Hello! :)
Uh, I just want to apologize sa mga readers ng 'Home is in Your Eyes'. I'm very, very, sorry for not keeping my word. But I can't do anything about it eh. I mean, it's a story about a beautiful love relationship. And it's just so weird because I'm writing of something that is not so familiar with me. 'The heck is wrong with this girl', some might say. 'She's writing a story about love when in the first place she does not really know what love is'.
Okay. :) I understand. But it's true. It's true that I do not really know what love is about. Although love did knock on my door, I just did not give it the chance to be understood by my stubborn heart. So yeah. A few hours ago, I was searching for a movie to watch tonight. I had no idea why I chose 'The Notebook'. This was the first time na napanood ko siya ng buo. Kasi nung una kong attempt na panoorin sya, sira yung player ko. Then with the second attempt naman, gasgas yung CD. But I got lucky na, so yay I watched it. It was not in my plan to cry. At mas lalong hindi ko pinlano na maalala itong particular person na ito who just popped in my mind out of nowhere.
When I remembered him, I felt sad. I felt sad mainly because I know na iniisip niya na hindi ko talaga siya minahal (sorry, so cheesy. Pero srsly.) Sometimes I try to think, in what way niya kaya ako naaalala? I can't help but think na ang tingin niya sakin ay "yung taong binalewala ako, niloko ako, hindi ako minahal, sinayang lang ang oras ko".
It's suuuuuuper damn embarrassing, I know. 'Grabe that girl is so CRAZYYY! It's been so long ago, and look at her. I pity her, she's so alooone!' Yeah. Masakit man isipin, but I was expecting that. Pero I just want to clarify that I'm writing this not mainly for the reason that I want someone back or what. I'm doing this as a favor for myself. Para kahit papano, masabi ko na 'I was able to say the things that I really wanted to say.' Hurts but yeah, life is short. I don't want to have any regrets. If you're the person na kanina pa natatamaan, I'm not asking you for anything. I just didn't want you to see the past as something ugly. Because honestly, that past was beautiful. And so far, the best I've ever had. Again, I am not asking you for anything. If you think I'm crazy, you can just pretend na hindi mo to nabasa. Anyway, I'm not expecting you to care about it. I just wanted to do myself a favor. Grabe you have no idea how embarrassing this is on my part. But I have to take risks and not play it safe. It's not all the time that I could do this. Just in case you want to know, just in case lang, I'm writing this to let you know what was really on my mind and what was really behind everything that I said. 'Damn, it's too late!' Nope. It's not. For the nth time, I'm not asking you for anything.
Well, I just hope that I made the right decision. I know it's RISKY but who cares. YOLO.
So umm, *sigh*. Sorry. Sorry for the long intro.
To those who are in love...
To those who don't care about love...
To those who are looking for love...
and to those who lost love...
THIS IS FOR YOU.
I learned a lot and I hope you guys, too.
Sometimes, you just got to go insane and ignore what your mind tells you. Sometimes, might sound cliche, but you got to follow your <3.
Yours, DANIE
P.S. I may sound like a hopeless lover but no, I am not. I hope there's nothing wrong with telling your story about a person whom you once cared so much about, and made you feel the same likewise.
