Natalie greir

Chapter 2 🖤

I was on my way to cheyann's house now .
*skip car ride*
I pulled into her drive way and she was already outside in the house. Hey are u ready? Yea I've been ready. Haha srry I was bombarded by Nash and cameron. Oh cameron! Yea shut up tho. What did he say to u? Nothing. (Even though I tell her everything I just couldn't admit I liked him until I know he likes me back) I started driving and tbh I was kinda sad ! We turned on the radio and headed to the mall. When we got to the mall we went straight to Victoria secret bc I love that store! Then we got some bathing suits and shirts and crop tops. Then I went to Spencer's and got some converse and vans . Then we got hungry and went to the food court . I was drinking a monster when I felt cheyann yell shit and look at me . Wht? I yelled don't look now but I see ur ex. Where I asked as I kinda ducked and looked around. Then I saw the one and only Jackson, ugh I hated him but I loved him. We had dated for 3 years until he got drunk one night and fucked another girl and I was pissed and sad and after we broke up my parents we taken from me! How could life be any harder? After that I went threw depression and Hayes and Nash have been trying to help me threw it all. NATALIE? Cheyann yelled at me . I didn't notice I had zoned out and was crying by then. Natalie whts wrong are u okay ? I need to go home cheyann like now please. Okay let's go. We started walking out the store when I heard that once adorable hot voice of my ex
Natalie wait please I wanna talk to u
Jackson theirs nothing to talk about okay just go fuck ur butch and leave me alone
Please natalie it wasn't on purpose I was drunk
Yea well it's not my fault now I have to leave so let me go
No just give me another chance please
NO GO AWAY YOU FUCKING BASTERD
I looked around and saw people staring at us I was so embarrassed and mad and all these emotions were running threw me I couldn't take it I started crying and ran out of the mall . When I reached my car I unlocked the car and sat in the seat and hit the steering wheel. All I could do was yell. Then I felt someone hug me and I thought it was cheyann so I hugged back until I heard them say it's okay baby girl I'm here now . I just looked up and saw Jackson
Wht do u want I said leave me alone!
I know but I can't get over u I'm srry natalie I love u !
Well I don't okay I love someone else okay I've moved on ! And then I heard cheyann get in the car I got outta his grip and stopped hugging him but honestly I didn't want to I still loved him wait wht am I saying ? No,no I love Cameron! I don't know anymore I closed the car door and drove off . I dropped of cheyann and she gave me a hug! I got home and parked the car and started crying in the car again I just don't know Wht to do! I was going threw so much right now and then I see Jackson ! I just need to go to bed . I got outta the car and grabbed my bags and opened the door I was walking up stairs and I saw Hayes, Nash and cameron on the couch playing video games
Na/ hey sis did u have fun
N/ SHUT THE FUCK UP NASH HOW CAN U H-HAVE F-Fun WHEN U LOOSE EVERYTHING Y-YOU L-LOVE
I took off running in my room and crying I slammed my door and ran in the bathroom.
All I could think of was negativity?I couldn't take it anymore I went in my drawer and grabbed my old blade and set it on the bathroom counter . I stood their looking at it then glancing at my wrist. Meanwhile Nash was banging at my door
Na/NATALIE PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR
H/NATALIE PLEASE DON'T DO ANYTHING YOU'LL REGRET
N/I'm sorry I love u guys but I just can't I wanna see mom again she would still be hear if it wasn't for me
C/NATALIE PLEASE NO I LOVE YOU
N/sobbing *
I had no idea Wht to do I just picked up the blade and put it in my wrist and cut my arm
1)for killing ur parents
2)for loving Jackson
3)for th-
before I could finish my door was kicked in and Hayes cam running to me and hugging me
I was so zoned out it was like I was not their I had no control over myself I just remembered being carried to my bed and Hayes rocking me and kissing my forehead crying and Nash was crying and holding my arm and kissing my scars while cameron was looking for the first aid and cleaning my cuts it  was a sad and terrible moments why did I just do that I made my brothers and cameron cry ! I'm such and idot and with that I blacked out
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I have to admit I was really filling that anyways read on to see what happens