And she was lost, she didn't know what she felt anymore, she was both happy and sad at the same time. She would never tell how she felt, she would stay quiet and keep it for herself. She had lost so much and gained so little, she would never feel good enough for anyone, not even for herself. She would laugh and she would smile, she would act like everything was fine but she knew she was living a lie, behind her smile she held a broken heart. She would forgive over and over again just because she was afraid to lose someone who never saw her real worth. She expected too much and never learned to let go, she got attached too fast and when time came, a part of her was gone too. And all those promises in which she believed flew away just like the wind. And she waited, and waited, but he never came. All she wants is to never feel again because every time she feels, all she feels is pain.
