We Still Exist [h.s.]

Chapter 2

PLEASE BE AWARE THAT THIS CHAPTER WILL CONTAIN BRIEF DESCRIPTIONS OF DOMESTIC ASSAULT. THIS IS YOUR TRIGGER WARNING.

CAMERON'S POV

Sometimes I think that the whole night was a nightmare. When I spoke with the police I told them everything. How I felt threatened for my life. How I defended myself. And how I was assisted by some random passerby. They looked at me like I was crazy when I told them the person who helped me ran away when they showed up. All 4 of them were taken to jail and charged with robbery and assault.    

Since that night, I've been more careful. I'm looking to hire another person to close the gym with me. Today is the first of 5 interviews I have scheduled throughout the week. I hate interviews. Mostly because people will do anything to get hired. 

Even after everything that happened that night, I still maintain my uninspiring regime. Routine gives me a sense of security. I have a young girl who comes into my gym every day on the weekdays named Beth. Her mother doesn't give a rat's ass about where she is, so I've sort of developed a weak spot for her. I took her shopping for school clothes last week and let her buy whatever she wanted. Her favorite thing she chose was a pair of pink shoes.

I had grown accustomed to having her around the gym during the day. I didn't see her for a couple days after the incident and I began to worry. I went to her house to speak with her mum and maybe find out where she was. I walked up 3 flights of stairs and stopped at their apartment door with the number 317 on it. I gently knocked and then heard some heavy footsteps. The door opened and Beth's mum stood in the doorway with a lit cigarette hanging off her lips. She was a kind woman with mental illness. When I looked her over, I saw that she looked a bit battered. She had bruises in the shape of fingerprints on her collarbone. She had a bit of a fat lip and you could tell she had been crying. "Tori, what happened to you?"

Her eyes started to dwell with tears and she took a drag of her cigarette. "Nothing. I'm strait. What do you need?"

I looked past her into the kitchen and made eye contact with a man I've seen her with before, but it had been a few months. I could feel my teeth grinding. "I came to check on Beth, I haven't seen her in a few days. Do you guys want to come to the store with me?"

She took a couple seconds to ponder. She subtly looked over her shoulder and then back at me. "Yeah, we need some bread anyways. We'll be down in a minute."

I nodded as she closed the door. I walked down to the main entrance and waited there for about 10 minutes. When Beth saw me she ran up to me and jumped into my arms for a hug. "I missed you!"

I smiled and squeezed her tightly. "I missed you too! Let's go."

On the way to the store we stopped to get her an ice cream cone. While she sat contently and ate it, I took some time to talk with Tori. "Why did you let him come back?"

I didn't want to make her feel like she was in trouble, but I wanted to know what was going through her mind. "I lost my job, so we talked. He's been doing a lot better. He treats Beth really good and he helps me."

I scoffed at her. "He doesn't seem like he's doing better. Beth shouldn't be around that. I don't care how well he treats her now. Why didn't you tell me? I would've helped you."

I felt guilty for bombarding her with all of this, but Beth's safety is important to me. "Cam.. It's not that easy."

I cut her off before she could say more. "It is. You need to think of you and your kid. What happens when Beth gets older and he starts hitting her? You can't let that happen."

She started to sound defeated and slightly agitated. "I know what I'm doing."

"If I ever find out he's hurt her in any way, I'll kill him. You always have a place with me."

After I said that Beth came skipping over to us. Tori was fighting tears and putting on a fake face. "Mum, don't cry!"

She hugged her and I rubbed Tori's back. When she collected herself, we went to the store to buy a couple things. I took them home afterwards and went back to my gym to get ready for the interview. 

The first person I interviewed was a young woman who was 6 minutes late. She had never had a job before and was freshly out of high school. The next day I had 2 more interviews. The first was a middle aged man who coached softball for elementary school kids. He was punctual and professional. The second interview was a young man in his 20s who was also attending college.

I was exhausted. I locked up and went home to think. At one point I wished that the stranger who helped me that night would come work for me. In all reality, I just wanted to see him again. How am I still thinking about someone I don't even know? At the risk of sounding like a cliche, there was a spark between us that I've never felt with anyone in my life. A total stranger had taken over my thoughts. I need a bath.

I went to my bathroom and undressed myself. I turned on the hot water then added some lavender bubbles. I got in the bathtub as it filled, and I watched my skin turn from pale to a sweet, pink-ish red. I let the hot water envelope me and my stressed figure as I slowly sunk into the calm smelling bubbles.

I allowed my intrusive thoughts to take over instead of fighting them. His eyes were the first thing I thought of. I imagined his head between my legs with both of his arms wrapped around my thighs. I leaned my head back and slightly curled my toes as I touched myself in a sensitive spot. I started massaging myself where I visualized his tongue. 

His voice popped into my mind."What do you want me to do to you baby girl?"

The hairs on my skin started to stand up. I could picture his eyes staring through my body while I moved my hips with his mouth. I could almost feel his lips and hear the sounds they would make. It was as if I knew already what he felt like. I thought about his hands running all over my body. I wanted to know what his hair felt like in my fingers. 

Ecstasy. I shivered while euphoria took over my entire body. I pictured him telling me what a good girl I am for c***ing into his mouth. I'm completely overwhelmed by pleasure. Shame soon followed as I realized I just got off to the thought of a complete stranger. I descended beneath the surface of the water to hide from the humiliation.

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