Sarah's P.O.V
2 years later
"One for all the pricks at school"
I slid the razor against my skin slowly.
"One for life fucking me up"
I cut myself again even deeper.
"One for my fucking family that could care less about me"
I sliced my wrist softer this time.
"And one for Liam Fucking Payne. The boy who helped me ruin my life and can't even take credit for it" I whispered quietly.
I pressed the razor so hard and deep across my skin. I started to bleed out. The feeling was amazing. I just felt free. So this is how it would all end. I, Sarah Payne, 14 year old, would die up in the attic. Meh. I could care less. I knew I would die alone anyway. I had no friends. My parents died when I was two years old. I went and moved in with Liam and his family. I would look back at photos and reminisce about all those fun times I had with Liam. Now, I just burn them. He probably wouldn't even remember them now that he's back on X Factor. Karen unfortunately though, kept a second copy of each photo.
I slowly, but surely bled out. This was it. The blood just kept flowing. No ones home anyway. Everyone's watching perfect little Liam do his thing. I got invited. I just walked away and came up here. And now, my life could basically end.
"Sarah!" Shit. Karen's home.
"Sarah! Come down here" I stayed silent.
"I know you're up there!" Nothing.
"That's it. I'm coming up there" Shit. Shit. Shit. No. This can't be happening. I was so close. So fucking close. Now, I'll be stitched up by miss save-the-day Karen.
The trapdoor opened. Karen walked up looking at me with shock written all over her face. I just sat there in the corner of the attic, bleeding without a care in the world. I felt free.
"SARAH! WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING? WHY!" Karen shouted. Tears welled up in her eyes, threatening to spill over.
"Liam. LIAM" Her voice wavering slightly.
"What is it?" Liam said walking up the little steps.
"Oh my God" Liam said placing a hand over his mouth. He slowly began to approach me. And then I snapped.
"NO! NO! NO! GO AWAY. DON'T COME NEAR ME! THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT! YOU CAUSED THIS!" I shouted at him. I picked up my razor and placed it upon my wrist which was still bleeding but very slowly.
"ONE MORE STEP AND I SWEAR TO THE MOTHER-FUCKING GODS I WILL DO IT AGAIN!" I threatened. He just stared at me in shock.
"GET OUT! BOTH OF YOU! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE" And then I broke. I dropped the razor to the ground. I was a sobbing mess. Karen run over to me engulfing me in one of her motherly hugs.
"I can't do it anymore" I choked out between my sobs.
"Shhhhhhh. Its alright. Everything is going to be okay. Liam, please leave just for a bit and tell the boys that I will be down in a minute to make you guys dinner" Karen said calmly soothing me and rubbing aimless patterns on my back. Liam ran out of the room and down the stairs.
"Honey. How about we take you back to your counseling sessions. Yeah? Does that seem like a good idea to you?" I nodded knowing my voice would betray me if I tried to speak.
"Now lets get you all cleaned up okay" I didn't move. She tried to lift me but failed miserably.
"Geoff! Come help me clean Sarah up please?" Karen called out.
"Alright. Give me a minute" Geoff said from downstairs.
"No. I need you now"
"Kay". I heard footsteps come up the stairs, but I saw nothing. My eyes were opened, but shut off. I was in lockdown. I didn't respond to anything.
"Holy shit" Geoff exclaimed.
"Up we go" He said as he carefully picked me up. I got moved to the bathroom next to my bedroom and was sat on the bench. Karen placed a damp cloth on my wrist clenaing and stopping the remaining blood. She wrapped a gauze around my wrist and placed a small kiss on my forehead.
Geoff hoisted me up and placed me in my bed tucking me under the cover whispering something that I couldn't quite catch. Before I knew it, I drifted off into my own world. This world has no Liam. No one. Just me. But I couldn't concentrate on my surroundings. One thing ran through my mind.
I was so close
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I LOVE TO START STORIES OFF WITH A BANG . THEY ALSO END UP LIKE SHITE TOO. BUT OH WELL
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