Here we go again we are leaving last time my mom cheated on my dad and it broke my family up but she knows what she did wrong a knows she shouldn't of done it I forgive her and I started to get used to having a family again being happy siblings house then he cheats on her and it starts all over again the family breaks up it's happens again we move but not far this time I lose another part of me but this time I lose my sister they split us up that's why I give up I can't do it anymore I'm not letting anyone get close because they always leave or are taken away from me but idfc anymore because it's always going to be like this never really have a family that well stay together and idk how my mom will do this because she has to take care of me and the baby it's going to be so hard on her and me and I have another brother who won't have a dad how fucked up is that I'm just done I give up on everything this is how it's going to be well shit I'm fighting to stay here to be happy but I'm drowning in tears on my own because I can't cry in front of her I need to be strong because everyone leans on me but I need some one to save me some one to give me air I find that in my best friend ya she has problems of her own but she's still here for me and I'm here for her there's maybe 10 people in this world I can trust anymore I'm more scared then you can see it more fucked up then you think you tell me we'll be fine don't worry but it's here all the time I can't breathe I feel so tired I wanna sleep and not wake up I wanna die and leave all this shit behind but I can't because I love those ten people more then anything in this world I love them so much these problems can tear me down I I can be sure these people will help me up every time yes I know people will say death won't do shit you hurt the people you love all the people around you but you got to think I know it will hurt then but they'll be ok I'm not doing this for them I do it for me I need to feel something other then tears running down my cheeks I need to feel something other then depressed all the time I wanna feel happy I wanna feel a hug I want to feel loved but that doesn't happen when you shut people out because your scared of getting broken again because the last person who broke you lost some pieces of me and I feel like if I brake again my heart will be shattered so bad that I'll never be able to make it whole again but go ahead brake me I dare you build me up to destroy me people are really good at that I think everyone I know was but who cares who you brake down it doesn't hurt you so who cares you will care when you push someone over the edge and there gone then you hurt because your guilty and you know but after a while some people don't care but others it fallows them there whole life ya I've been bullied my whole life for how I look how I dress who I am but I'm me I'm ok with that I act like I don't care every one does but I do and so does everyone else ya you'll see this and be like I don't care yes you do because that's what society told us we have to look like this act like this witch makes us treat each other like shit so tear me down I dare you I know I care I'll have people to help me up after you do it I know don't say you don't because family's even do it to each other that's how I got here my family doing this to me so you decided ok tear your friends and family down or help others and be there to help them up you might not be able so save everyone from death or bullying but you can help them and stand up
