HAPPINESS TO BE FOUND

It's been exact 5 years

Dear  diary, 
It's been five years since I got up to find her gone. It's been five years since she left me and I still think of her everyday.  In the letter she told me that I shouldn't  go after her and move on.  And I tried to but I failed. Everytime I look into somebody else's  eyes I remember hers and the way  they made me feel  . They contained galaxies but I couldn't travel all of them.  U see  I didn't get much time with her. The letter is the only thing I got left of her except memories .I wonder where she is.  I have rehearsed all these nights  exactly what I would say to her if one day I see her again. Wherever she is I hope she is happy. Hope she is getting the life she always dreamt of.  I don't think we knew each other well. We fell  in love fast.  Cuz if we did  then she would  have known that by going away she is hurting me and if she  knew that she would have never done anything that can hurt me.  My best friend says that she was selfish but what can I do I LOVED HER. I'm tired of thinking. All these years I hoped that one day she will be back but even love can't make me that blind.  It's been  ten years and the whole world is searching for her. PERKS OF BEING A CELEB.
she is nowhere to be found. I'm done........ MY HEART IS TIRED...........
                                                                        Yours,
                                                                       Lauren

I got up and went down to the kitchen. All that thinking and writing makes me hungry. I live in a home alone,  the same home we used to live together . I can't leave it.  It contains her smell and her memories.  I found a left over pizza and quickly changed into my jacket and jeans  to leave for the studio.  Yeah,  I'm  Lauren Jauregui... , the former member of a girl group - fifth harmony , which everyone has forgotten about .....  I have been in this band for 8 years.  We were bandmates, me and camila , before she  decided  to leave the group  15 years years back. So I'll try and make it clear to you guys...  Camila and I first met at the X Factor  and after that we were put together into a girl group, fifth harmony. We were bandmates for 5 years until she decided to leave... 3 years from then none of us talked to her. After 3 years of  struggling with the incompleteness  the group broke up... After that I met camila and we had a lot of complications but at the end we became official girlfriends, yeah she came out. With me.. Everything was going just fine until one day I found her gone.........

"Earth to Lauren "; As usual Ally was the one to bring me back to reality.  " What's up lern?  U seem tensed ".  She asked quite oblivious of the date. "  It's the same day.  It's been exact  five  years  ". Ally being the usual angel she was , came and sat beside me in order to calm me down. " Lauren listen to me. I know you are sad and I know you will probably hate me for saying such things now but it's the truth so listen.  Wherever camila is,  I know she is happier.  That's why she left  after all,  to find happiness. You don't deserve this. I know one day you will feel happier too , you will move on and then you will look back and realize that everything happened for the good. I guess you two were not meant to be together. See,  you two have been separated two times. Both of the times either one pushed the other away.  Maybe it's a sign that the universe is giving to show that you guys are not soul mates . "; saying that , she squeezed my hands and gave me a warm smile. " I need a drink. Should I get you one?; she asked.
" No.  I'm fine ". I said. 
Fine.  I don't really know what that word means anymore.  According to the English dictionary it means ' when everything is okay '  . But it seems to me it's the word that we use nowadays when nothing seems okay. When are being killed inside but we have to be strong. That's when we use that word. To hide the pain inside...

Normani  rushed into the room in between all my thoughts with her beautiful smile which is forever plastered to her face. ' See what I brought you . The tickets of the movie you have been carving to watch for ages. Aww you look sad. What happened??? "; she asked.
Normani  has been my best friend since long.  At the beginning of the X Factor  my best friend was camila but we soon realized  that we were more than just  best friends.
All these years of hell,  Normani   has always been there with me.  Days when I got all drunk and wasted she used to make sure that I get back home in one piece.  She was the one to hear all my useless rants about my broken heart. She hates camila not because of any personal grudge that she  has  against her . she used to love her before but she is very possessive of her best friend , of me,  and she  loathes anyone  who hurts me.  It's quite obvious for her to hate the girl who kills me every single day . 
Even after fifth harmony broke up we all decided to remain friends,  each of us meeting  every weekend..  After fifth harmony broke up  I continued with my solo career,  normani  pursued her career as a  dancer,  Ally became a  baker and a  music teacher at some school and Dinah  continued with her solo career as well.
That was us  fifth harmony.  You must be thinking  that  what about camila?  Well I know nothing about her.  All I know is that she could be there at a  beach in some corner of the world eating bananas and reading a  book. 

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Hey guys so  this is the first time that I'm  writing a  fan fiction. Please let me know if you guys liked it or  not  .

Comment if you guys want me to keep writing or not.  If yes  then  please let me know ur ideas about how the  story is gonna turn out to be.
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