i sit on the floor
in my bathroom
i wanted to wash my hair
but i cant find the energy to do it
my head has been hurting
and water leaks from my eyes
thats fancy talk for
ive been crying
i cry for no reason
and every reason
i cry because i feel lonely
i cry just from glancing at myself in the mirror
sometimes i hate myself
id curse myself saying
why wont you open up
why are you so quiet
why wont you talk in your classes
i wish people knew more about me
when people look at me
i wish they thought
oh she likes to write
shes really smart
she has a good sense of humor
she likes football
but they think
she looks mad
shes so quiet
sometimes she groans for no reason
i overthink when im depressed
and that was me overthinking
im still sitting on the bathroom floor
but ive stopped crying
i dont feel sad
i feel tired
29 minutes later
he doesnt mean to
but he wont ft me
and it means nothing
because he just wants to go to bed
but i felt an ache in my throat down to my stomach
and all i felt
was empty
i felt truly lonely
not even my boyfriend would keep me company
as i walk alone tonight
