multifandom oneshots

now or never - Evak/Skam

Disclaimer: there's no smut in this, just fluff :)

I miss him, it's gotten so bad. I thought it would go away by now, but it hasn't. He's still here; in my thoughts, in my feelings, in my heart, in my bones, in my skin, in my tears, and in the words I scream that no one hears.

I guess the reason why my feelings haven't changed is because, he's still in my life. I see him at school in the hallways, at parties in the corner with his friends, in public with his head down and music in his ears - probably listening to Nas. Looking everywhere but me. Or, at least when I'm not looking.

I like to think he glances sometimes; thinks if I'm ok. Which I'm not but, what can you do. I don't think he is either. When I see him smile, it looks forced. I was with him long enough to know what his real smile looks like. But his upturned lips directly hit my heart just the same.

God I really hope he's ok; that I didn't fuck him up too much when I gave him the reason why I left. At the time, it seemed like a good idea. Him being bipolar was too much. That was in the summer when I made that stupid choice, now it's winter break. It's been six months, and I'm tired of this. Not talking to him and hearing his voice is tearing me apart. Especially not being with him on the weekends. And my friends have noticed. Of course they have. Hell, I know they can see it right now as we're sitting on Jonas's bedroom floor.

"You're thinking about him again aren't you?" Jonas bluntly says as he sips some cheap beer.

"How do you always know?" I felt my eyebrows push together.

Jonas rest his head on his hand. "You always have this look. It's like a mixture of stoned and sadness. You zone out, but you look sad. It's a reoccurring theme."

"Oh." I took another sip.

"Seriously why don't you just go to him already?" Magnus shouted out.

Jonas and I choked on our beers. "Woah there Mag, chill." Mahdi said while laughing. After I was done coughing I replied hotly.

"What are you talking about?"

Magnus rolled his eyes and took another sip. "Izzy, it's been six months. Clearly you're not over him. I think it's time for you to man up." He patted my shoulder and got up to change the song.

"So what if I'm not over him? I can't do anything about it. I've probably fucked things up too much. He's probably forgotten about me by now."

Mahdi chuckled under his breath, but Jonas caught it. "What are you laughing about?" Jonas and I cocked our eyebrows at him. He looked up at us hesitantly and muttered "shit." under his breath. Jonas and I looked at each other quickly, then drew our sight back to our source of suspicion.

"Ok, so I may or may not know that Even isn't over you." Magnus drops Jonas' phone mid song change with his mouth wide open. "Hey! Be careful with that!" Jonas scolds Magnus. Magnus says sorry and picks it up, and flashes the uncracked screen as he sticks his tongue out. Jonas rolls his eyes and returns to the bombshell that Mahdi just dropped.

"When were you going to fucking tell us?!" Magnus says in a hurt tone as he sits back down.

"Hey don't get mad at me. Even talked to me a few weeks ago when he saw me in the hall. He asked if I knew Isak still had feelings for him and how he was doing, but I said that he should ask him himself."

I lifted my head up and spoke. "Does this mean he still likes me?"

Mahdi leaned in closer and looked me in the eyes. "It's been six months. If he's still asking about you, he hasn't forgotten about you. Trust me." Magnus and Jonas nod and mumble out in agreement.