Then you smiled over your shoulder for a minute, I was stone-cold sober
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I wanted to open my mouth and tell her that she could have me and that I would be hers but, I wasn't ready for that. Cara was more than a handful and I mean that in the nicest way possible. She had a lot of baggage and a lot of shit going on in her life. And I couldn't handle my own shit how was I supposed to handle hers? It was easier when we were kids.
"Will you say something?" She looked at me with pleading eyes
"I'm sorry" was all that I could manage to croak out.
She only nodded turning toward the window
"I love you, Cara"
She laughed loudly "You don't hurt the people you love Beau"
"I would do anything in the world to take that back Cara, you know that"
"Then start fucking acting like it Beau"
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C A R A
I'd asked him to take me home after the ride had fallen silent, I didn't want to be with him when I was upset. I didn't want him to see that he had any effect on my emotions. I wanted him to know that I was okay without him. Even if I wasn't. Maybe that's why I was at Jake's block annual block party. Jake's party was known towns over, it was one of the biggest events that had been happening since we were around fifteen. His parents always went on vacation around this time so he always put together a wild party.
Maybe I was dancing with some kid named Brandon simply for the fact that Beau was watching me out of the corner of his eye as I laughed it up and ran my hands over Brandon's chest with a smirk.
Maybe that's why I threw down shots of liquor that I knew I couldn't handle. I never really drank at all, it wasn't my thing. Back in school, I used to stand by and watch Beau and the boys get trashed before helping them find their way back home safely. Alcohol had always scared me growing up, I never wanted to turn out like my mother. But here I was.
I nuzzled closer into Brandon's neck giggling as he nibbled at my ear,
"Why don't we take this upstairs"
I gave him a confused look "Why? I'm having fun here"
"I'm not going to fuck you here in front of everyone" He scoffed
"Woah, I don't wanna have sex with you" I backed away my hands up in the air in defense
"What the fuck do you mean you don't want to sleep with me? You've been dancing on me like a little tramp all night"
"Exactly what I said I don't want to sleep with you" I went to turn but stumbled as he grabbed me by the wrist and gave me a quick tug causing me to yelp in pain
"Where do you think you're going?"
"Aye Mate what are you doing" my head snapped up to see none other than my prince charming coming to save the day. He glanced over at me quickly before continuing his death glare with Brandon.
"None of your fuckin' business Mate" Brandon gripped my wrist tighter as he tried to pull me closer to him
"Let go of her" Beau muttered
Brandon only chuckled "Oh come on, she's just had a bit much to drink she wanted me to help her upstairs"
"I said let go of her" Beau repeated himself, his face solid as stone. If looks could kill I think both Brandon and I would be lifeless and on the floor.
"What are you gonna do?" he laughed, "you think you're so big and tough" he took a step closer to Beau. If I wasn't drunk off of my ass I probably would've told him that was a bad idea but I think he got the gist of it when Beau lifted his fist and swung causing Brandon to drop to the floor. I only looked up at Beau like a little puppy that had done something wrong as everyone else at the party gawked in silence.
"Let's get you home then" he placed his hand on the small of my back and led me out the house and to his car where I prepared myself for the scolding I was about to receive but instead he sat silent.
"Aren't you going to yell at me?" I looked over at him and hiccuped. He only shook his head and reached into the back seat and handed me a water. "Drink that" I didn't reply just twisted the cap off and took a few small sips. The silence returned but didn't stay as he slammed his hands on the steering wheel making me jump.
"God Dammit Cara" I looked down at my hands in my lap "you could've gotten fucking raped back there you know?" He raised his voice a bit louder "why do you have to be so stupid sometimes Cara" I twiddled my fingers as he scolded me on my actions "Are you even listening to me" his head turned as he looked over at me. I'm sure I looked like a wreck, my makeup was beyond smeared and my hair had probably started to frizz up.
"I'm sorry" he only sighed in response "I didn't mean for it go that far" he turned his blinker on and turned onto my street "I don't even know Brandon" I could sense the fact that he rolled his eyes at me
"Cara, how much have you had to drink?"
"I'm not entirely too sure but, they had this really good stuff and they were mixing it with this cinnamon liquor and it was so good Beau! You really have to try it sometime!"
"You're telling me you were drinking liquor tonight" He slowed down as he approached my house
"Yeah lots of it" I replied nodding too fast.
He cut off the engine and looked over at me with a smile on his face
"I want to be pissed at you, you know that Cara? I want to yell at you for being so stupid. I just can't bring myself to do it because you are so damn beautiful."
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