Her life and my life is not the same because she has happily ever after while me? I'm still suffering...a lot. Why am i saying this? Because this is how i feel. People leave even though they promised that they'll stay...people is like a killing machine...their words,actions or happiness can kill you....or torture you. I'm sorry if I'm like this...drama queen 😂 but I just want to express what I really feel...if you read this and feel pity for me...please don't...I don't like people to feel that way...I don't want it...I'm like this because...idk maybe life is just killing me...slowly....torturing me.....maybe i have disorder? I'm torturing myself.... I know its my fault... I like it tho....its just that....i think that its the right thing to do... You see.... I killed my brothers but not literally...i killed them by saying that i don't want them but in reality i do....i want to have a sibling because i feel like if i have them...maybe the pain or this torturing thing is going to end...but sadly its not going to end....it kills me already....i have a sibling now and I'm so glad that i have....my parents is happy and I don't get their attention anymore...I don't like having attention from them...it kills me....their words kill me....their actions kill me....it is killing me,slowly.....the attention i get from them is when i did something wrong...they tell me I'm stupid,dumb,shit,worthless, and all those compliments i get... I call it compliments 😂 weird right? That's me....weirdo....
