I broke up with my ex nearly 2 months ago. I wasn't that bothered at the time and got over it as it only lasted 2 months. Although we only went out for a short amount of time I did quite a few things with him and I was 99% sure I was going to lose my virginity to him. I didn't btw.
He broke up with me the day after Valentine's Day. Luckily I don't have to see him everyday as we live about 70 miles away from each other.
For the first month I didn't care and being single was fun. But recently I've been thinking about him a lot. At first it was odd being single tho, like funny things I would send to him on Snapchat I couldn't anymore (another reason I deleted Snapchat) cause he clearly didn't want anything to do with me. It felt like a part of me was missing. As I was saying recently he's been on my mind a lot. When I think of anything sexual he pops into my head. There are little things that remind me of him.
I've just been sat in bed crying cause I miss him even tho he is a complete c*nt and I hate him. I hate him so much but I love his at the same time. He cheated on me when we were going out ffs and I still can't see that he's a horrible person. He's so horrible but I miss him sm. I'm crying again just writing this.
I want a new boyfriend so bad just to distract me from the thoughts of him but then we'll end up breaking up and I'll go through it all over again.
Love is such a horrible thing and will rip you to pieces. Stay single for as long as you can.
Ali xx
