Trust issues

chapter 1

I stepped foot onto the old rundown school steps of River-Dale High School. The wind blew on my face harshly, leaving a stinging pain on my eyes. I blinked firmly and got a good look of my new school. My parents have recently decided that it was best for us to move since i was having a hard time in my old school. They thought that a fresh start would patch up my old scars. 

As a child i was obese. I was above average weight and that always made me feel a little more insecure about myself. People soon started picking on me by calling me names and pushing me around. I wasn't the type of person to fight back, i always kept my mouth shut, but maybe i should've spoken out. The name calling became too much, soon i had started to think of myself as worthless; i had started to think i was ugly because of my weight and my acne, i thought i wasn't good enough, i thought that i didn't belong. I became depressed. i slowly stopped eating because it seemed like the most reasonable way to loose weight, but i was still unhappy with myself. I started to hurt myself physically apart from emotionally. Scars covered my thighs as if it were protecting them. I was wreck. 

My parents eventually saw my scars during a family  outing to the beach. My shorts had risen up as i got out of the ocean leaving most of my recent scars exposed. They were angry that they hadn't noticed a change in me beforehand. They thought they could've stopped me. Together, they came to the conclusion that moving was the best alternative.

So here i am, in front of my new school. Fear slowly started to seep through my veins. I was a different person, but the fear of bullied once again was strong. Was i really ready to come back to school? Was i ready for labels? For drama? For name calling? Rumors? I dont think anybody is, but i need this. A fresh start.