All Bad - Sequel to My Best Friends Brother BLS

25 - Insecure

Rose's POV:

I was six months pregnant.  I hated it- don’t get me wrong Im gonna love this kid, It’s just that I hate the constant cravings, dreaded mood-swings, unspeakable pain, and I can’t really be active with Justin.

Justin likes to joke around mostly he’s like a bad-ass kid. That V8 commercial where they slap someone’s forehead and is like, ‘You should’ve had a V8’ well the bastard does that at the most random time. For example if I just fell sleep, he’d fucking slap me on the forehead and does that. I swear to god, if he does that to me again I’m punching him where it hurts the most.

But the thing that bothers me the most is that I’m fat, everywhere. My stomach is a balloon and my boobs doubled in size which is a dreadful pain, it takes about ten seconds for me just to get off of this damn chair- I just don’t feel healthy. I know I’m eating for two and It’s not like I’m going to starve myself or anything in that matter, it’s just everywhere I go people look at me and it seems like they think I’m disgusting. I don’t get why though like, why can’t people just be nice. I turned my head quickly away from Justin as tears welled up in my eyes. I never told him how I felt because I knew for a fact that he’d be pissed and nag the hell out of me on why I’d ever think in that sort of way, and I just don’t feel like dealing with that. 

I quickly wiped away the fallen tears that dripped onto my rosy cheeks and carefully lifted myself off of the couch.

“Aye baby, I’ll help you” I heard my fiance call out as he gently held onto my hands and pulled me up carefully.

“Thank you” I whispered softly, afraid that my voice would crack. He didn’t say anything. I kept my head down the whole time, feeling Justin’s hand cup my face and turned it into his direction.

“Why are you crying?” He tried looking for an answer as I stalled for a minute or two. My eyes danced from wall to wall before meeting back up with his glance. “Just- the baby is kicking” I came up with the best lie I could come up with. I could tell Justin didn’t believe me at first, but he had to.

“Alright” He dismissed our conversation as the moment the doorbell rang. I excused myself from him by kissing his cheek and made my way over to the door. Swinging it open my eyes came in contact with Jenny. “Hi Rose - Oh my god your stomach is huge!” My face dropped, I knew I shouldn’t let it get to me but it’s noticeable, everyone knows that I’m fat and disgusting and I can’t hide it. I laughed, trying to break the tension.

Jenny regularly comes over now, we're pretty good friends now, she was returning my top which i left at hers the other day.

I closed the door behind her, keeping my head down before locking it back up. “Babe…”

“I’m fine.” I smiled weakly, not trying to get Justin to notice how hurt I actually am but he knew me. He could sense when I’m hurt. I watched his every move as he came closer to me. His eyes seeming as if they were daggers aiming at me, clenched fists- I knew why he was like this. He want mad, I could say he was hurt as well? I couldn’t really tell, but I knew for a fact that he wasn’t mad-not at me anyways. Lofting over my 5’4 ft. figure, he unclenched his fists and slowly ran his hands on my shoulders.

“Why…” I shrugged my shoulders, not really knowing the reason why I felt this way. I just did. The emotions and expressions on people’s faces give away how they think of me. I knew what they were thinking and I just finally cracked, a little five year old boy finally made me show me true feelings towards my appearance and showed Justin how I was really feeling. 

My bottom lip started to quiver expressing that I was about to burst any second. I didn’t want to show Justin my weakness, but it’s not like he’s seen it before. I brought my hands over my face finally bursting out in tears. I felt his arms wrap around me, pulling him into his strong upper body. My hands moved away from my face and held onto his shirt, gripping it with such force that I felt like I was going to tear a hole in the fabric.

“I just do, okay! People stare at me thinking I’m ugly, giving me god-awful looks- I feel fat and ugly, Justin!” I sobbed into his chest as he held a tighter grip on me. My stomach was pressing up against his lower abdomen, feeling not as close as I wanted to be with him.

“Look at me, Rose.” He gritted through his teeth with a demanding tone, causing me to look up at him even though I didn’t really want to. “You need to stay strong, babe. You stressing over the little things isn’t helping now is it? Keeping your feelings to yourself did that help?” I shook my head sniffling as I kept my eyes on his. 

“Exactly, it didn’t. You’re gorgeous; I just can’t believe you don’t think that? Yeah you might have a pregnant belly and it’s noticeable, but that’s it. You’re keeping our baby healthy as it grows… You shouldn’t be so insecure over this-” Justin tried reasoning with me as he pointed to my pregnant belly.

“Its natural babe, just because a five year old notices that your stomach is getting bigger due to your pregnancy, you shouldn’t be sad, you should be happy because in four months you’ll be able to push this baby out and break my hand while doing it” He joked, putting a smile on my face. I loved Justin, he always knew how to make me feel better even if it’s the little things by noticing the little things I do. “You’re beautiful, sexy, and gorgeous- Rose you’re perfect and you shouldn’t need anyone to tell you that.” 

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