What does it mean when you dream the same dream constantly? Is it telling you some part of the future? Maybe its there just to keep you up at night thinking of the past, a memory you've been trying to suppress for years but keeps repeating itself, the same thing over and over. Why does your mind not wonder somewhere else and stay clear of the amygdala while you sleep?"Think happy thoughts" you're told, "Happy thoughts make happy dreams" they say, but what if you can't think happy? What if happy doesn't quite exist in the depths of your mind? What if the past was so bad that you can't focus on the good because of how little there was of it? What if you can't be happy because of the fear it won't last long? What if you stay up all night wondering why you can't seem to smile when that one special person isn't there. Did they really give you a reason to smile? Or did you care about them so much that you don't want to drag them into the endless black-hole of your soul, so you feel as if a mask is needed to hide the face of nothingness because you are nothing but a dark hollow shell with no hopes or dreams of seeing light once more?Do you just except that there is no glue strong enough to keep you together? Or do you make the choice of giving pieces of yourself to others until you no longer exists? What does it all mean to be happy exactly? What all can you do to try from being consumed by the past?
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Thoughts
Short StoryIt's just a bunch of random things I think of sometimes, and instead of letting it rot in my head I have decided to share, so don't judge me to harshly if it's bad.
