He finds out you self harm ~A.I

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Ashton- Ashton had just recently been back from tour, and to say you had a good time without him would be a big fat lie. You fell into the hole of darkness you so desperately want to get away from. And in that state you found your hidden stash of blades, and left mark upon mark along your wrists and thighs. But that was a while ago now, with ashton back, you have the motivation to stop, as you don't want him to find out.. Today you both decided to have a lazy day- video games, movies and pizza, what more could a girl want. During this you were so caught up with having him by your side, you absentmindedly rolled your sleeves up you your elbows, putting the scars on your wrist on full display.. Ashton didn't notice until the light from the controller flashed, the light hitting your wrist showing off the white lines.. "Is- is that what I think it is" he looks at you with tears in his eyes. You sniff, and not knowing how to respond you just pull at our sleeves and look down.. He doesn't reply, he just simply gets up, wiping away tears as he walks away whispering "why didn't she tell me" you sit there staring into space for what seems like forever, listening to the sounds of your boyfriends faint sniffles.

Eventually you break out of your trance and head towards the bedroom, the door is closed but you can hear him so you know he's in there. "Ash!?" He doesn't reply your voice softens "listen Ashton, I'm sorry for not telling you, I haven't told anyone, but believe me you were the one person I truly wanted to tell. I just didn't know how, and today I was so caught up in having you home, I forgot.. I'm sorry you found out this way" you hear footsteps and the door soon opens. Before you can say anything he grabs you in his arms and kisses your nose before gazing into your eyes "when did this start?" You gulp "I started around the the time I started high school, but I stopped when I met you, but then I got bad again when you left.." You trail off "hey" he coos "don't feel bad, I love you scars and all" you smile and kiss his cheek "I'm not leaving you again okay" he says sternly "no you're not, you've got tours coming up, you and the boys have worked so hard, I'm not letting my dark ways stop that" he smirks "what?" "Then I guess you'll just have to come with me next time" you go to protest but he stops you by placing his lips on yours "I love you" he murmurs "I love you more"

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