Since (BTS Jungkook X Male Reader)

Part V: What It Seemed

"We can eat here." I pointed at the coffee table in the living room. I sat down on the floor and watched Jungkook put down the food he brought on the table. You'd think, 'Why use the coffee table when you clearly have a dining table?'. Well let us just say that living alone never really gave me the chance to use the table. To be short, It's where I put all my school work and other similar things needed in college.

My cheeks were a little red and puffed up. Possibly due to crying just a while back. Although I was quite sure it was more on the 'red' side than on 'puffed up' side now that Jungkook is here.

I brought my knees up to my chest and hugged them as Jungkook sat down beside me. Back in the day it would be normal for him to sit beside me to eat together during lunch breaks, or at least I would pretend it was normal. But avoiding a guy for years has the tendency to change things the way they were before.

"I-I'll go get the plates." I stuttered out.

See what I mean?

I stood up and went to the kitchen. My hands were shaking when I pulled out the drawer to get 2 plates. I was nervous.

'Pull yourself together, Y/n.' I mentally scolded myself before taking a deep breath. It was my chance to have answers to the questions that bugged me for a very long time, and I wasn't going to let this chance slip by.

I walked back to the living room, stopping by a drawer to get some utensils. By the time I arrived, Jungkook had put his mask and hoodie at one side of the couch, leaving him in his black t-shirt and ripped jeans.

"Let me help you with that." He offered as he saw me, standing up at the same time. My cheeks turned to a light color of pink as he took the plates I carried and laid them on the coffee table.

We both sat down at the same time. "Here~" Jungkook offered the fried chicken. I took one and he took also one afterwards.

An awkward silence filled up the room. I tried to eat without looking at Jungkook, which I obviously failed to do so. I wanted to bring up the topic but everytime I look at him to finally speak my courage wanes.

Soon after, we finished eating. For a moment we just sat there in silence, neither of us saying a word. Until~~~

"Y/n, look" Jungkook started "I'm really sorry about what happened back then." He sighed. I looked at him, our eyes meeting each other.

"I didn't mean to keep our relationship a secret from you." He continued. He didn't mean it, huh?

My eyebrows furrowed. "But you still kept her a secret from me" I retorted. By this time I was fully facing him, and so was he. "You don't say "It's okay" to someone when they confess, especially your childhood friend, when you already have a girlfriend in the first place!"

Unknowingly, I was already shouting at him. I woke up from my faze and looked at a shooked Jungkook. I was on my knees, towering over him. My hands curled up into fists.

"I'm sorry." I withdrew from my intimidating position and looked at the floor as to hide the tears that threatened to escape. "It was just like you played me. You could've just said to me that and I would have accepted it instead of making me hope that we had a chance." I mumbled under my breath.

By this time my tears already started to fall. I was sobbing. It was pathetic but it wouldn't stop.

"Y/n..." Jungkook said before wrapping his arms around me. I resisted, thrashing at him in pure anger, but after a while I just let him do as he wished. What was strange was it was strangely comforting.

He pulled out of the hug and sat again. "I didn't tell you about us because I thought it might hurt your feelings." He reasoned out. I felt his head tilt to look at my face which I tilted away so that he couldn't see me.

"I was a jerk." Jungkook mumbled out. "A jerk to the two of you..."

Wait, what?

"What do you mean? I don't understand." Creases formed in my head in confusion. I gently pushed him back. It was at this moment when Jungkook's face was stained with red.

"When I had her, the first moments were---fine. But when I was with you I was weirdly happy. I just failed to accept that you were all I needed. I was childish and I thought I really loved her. But the truth is..."

"I loved you."

Those last three words left me at a loss for words. Did I hear right? Did he say he loves me?

"But that doesn't explain why you kept her a secret." I said with a shaky voice, still in disbelief of what I heard.

Jungkook looked at me in the eye, as if telling me to listen well. "I was afraid I'd hurt someone. But it turned out I hurted someone that I truly cared about. I just came to know that when you suddenly transferred. I stopped seeing her and soon enough we broke up."

I laid back in shock, my mouth open. It was too much to sink in. My eyes darted back to Jungkook's face to see if he was lying or not. And it turns out he was not. I don't know if this was some lesson trying to be imparted by the author of this story to never enter a relationship in a young age but whatever the reason, im~~~

"And to prove it." Jungkook leaned in. I felt his hand creep to the back of my head and I got the clue of his intentions. My cheeks turned a shade of crimson red, and soon followed Jungkook's lips resting into mine.

My heart threatened to beat out of my chest. Instinctively, I wrapped my arms around him. It was after a few sweet seconds after we seperated to get some air.

"I love you, I wish I realized that sooner before." Jungkook whispered into my ear. I nuzzled myself into the warmth of his neck.

"I wish that we could wash the dishes already so that we can cuddle." A smile was plastered across my face as I heard Jungkook chuckle.

"Okay fine. But when we cuddle expect me to be shirtless and only in my boxers."

"Gross!"

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Hello guys, it's me :) This is the end of the story so thank you for taking your time to read my work, yey! Please tell me if you got a little bit confused of your past with Jungkook here. Also tell me if you found Jungkook's explanation also confusing. I made this late at night so I sincerely apologize if this chapter was disorienting in any way. But please do tell me if it's confusing so that I can make an edit.

I plan on making three other stories. As much as I want to do them all I can only do one at a time. So please pick what I should do first.

1. That One Trainee
-In this story you are a trainee whom Bighit picked up from the streets after seeing you perform in a bar. Little did Bighit know about your ties with an organization, and so did 7 boys who fell in love with you 1 by 1.

2. One Seat Apart
-This one is another Jungkook story where you are his classmate at Sopa. You excelled in the 'dance' area, but not so much in the 'sing' area, but luckily Jungkook got your back.

3. A Symphony
-You are a musical intern at bighit for 3 months. You knew how to play every musical instrument given that you are a musical prodigy. But the catch was you were mute. You can still hear others clearly though. Because of your disability, you had few friends, but 7 boys saw past that and you were proud to say you can't count your friends with the fingers in your hand now. But aside friends little did you knew you were about to start counting something else. Let's name it, "lovers" shall we.

That's it! Once again thank you for reading and as always BTS HWAITING