The Human with all the answers

Dear Mom,

I love my mother,

I love my mother and all the wonder things she has to say,

Like when she said that gay was just a phase,

Or when being discriminated was one of God's many ways,

And never to sin always pays.

I love my mother,

I love my mother and all the wonder memories she has given to me,

Like that one night when she was drunk and told my dad to just leave,

and I'm not talking about divorce,

Im talking about murder of course,

Or when she told me she wished I would change myself into coarse,

I love my mother,

I love my mother and all the ways she has made me feel,

Like how she made suicide look ideal,

And my heart turn to steel,

Or when she had me crying myself to sleep and my feelings open to reveal,

I love my mother,

I love my mother and all of the times she has been unfair,

Like that one time when she told my brother she was proud of him and probably other heart warming things that a mother should have told all of her children,

But no never me,

I love my mother,

I love my mother but I feel numb to thought of the word "Mom."

It's the feeling you get when your hanging out with a stranger,

It's sad to feel this way for someone who was supposed to be highest-ranking in a family unit,

And it sucks to have feelings for a person because we ARE human,

But it hurts even more when you feel disconnected as well.

I love you mom if you couldn't tell,

But I think I just heard the Bell,

I guess i will talk to you later so I can dispel,

Next week? Next month? Maybe In a year or two.

(Goodbye mom)