Devils and Angels

3 - Did I do something wrong in life?

Sorry I haven't updated in a while but I was trying to live a life I don't have but here's the chapter I hope you enjoy the depressing drop to this story.............

6 Months Later......

My group's dance practices have been getting hectic and we hardly have energy anymore.
Chaerin isn't this big ball of energy anymore, Hana sleeps all the time and Chanel is always grumpy and scary. I tried making them happy again but I gave up on that plan ages ago. Things haven't been the same...
We've lost contact with BTS and I haven't spoken to Jimin in 3 months

"Chaerin stop doing the dance wrong and I get it right for a change" Chanel goaned as Chaerin tripped over her own feet.
"Oh I forgot you can't get anything right" she added

Chaerin and Doyoung broke up after 2 years of dating. Manager-nim said it was for the best but 1 month later Doyoung was rumoured to be dating another girl. That taw her apart.
As Chanel her and Tae were arguing everyday, every place and about every little thing that's why she's always grumpy.
Hana has never been more suicidal in her life. At least once a week I've seen her either sitting on the ledge of a window, holding a bunch of sleeping pills or holding a sharp object. I obviously stop her but sometimes I wonder what would happen to her if I wasn't there to prevent it. The answer was quite simple. Death.
I hope nothing like that happens to me. I always try and see the bright side even though they think and act so negatively. But as the Eomma of the group I am determined to see them all happy again.

Tomorrow is an important day for me and Jimin.
It's our 4 year anniversary.
Since we haven't seen each other in a while so I decide to surprise him by making his favourite foods and give him a card with some plane tickets inside. We've always wanted to go to New York together but never had the chance and maybe this can put some stress off his shoulders.
But also tomorrow is an important day for me and the girls.
Our comeback MV is coming out. The day that we've finally waited for, the day that all of our hard work would be played off and hope that the girls will be the happy girls they used to be.
And I hope it does change them for the better because I would give up my life for them to be happy.

Tomorrow

3.............2...............1.............Upload

The 'Black Magic' MV has uploaded

Manager-nim, the girls and I were all gathered around a table watching the MV post on V Live, Youtube and the BigHit entertainment page.

"Why do I feel so scared and worried?" Chanel muttered.
"Of what?" I questioned.
"Of the fans hating it"
"I agree" Chaerin and Hana whispered
Silence.
"Manager-nim can I take your leave?"
"Of course Sunny"
"And girls come on I know we'll do great not even that we'll be slayying"
And with that I left the room to go on my plans for tonight .

Couple of hours later.......

I wore a floral flowing dress and put my hair into a ponytail.
I packed all the food and the card for him saying I was sorry for not contacting him for a while with the plane tickets in. With that, my confidence and a bit of makeup I left for Jimin's apartment.

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As I entered his driveway I knocked on the door.

No answer

I knocked again.

No answer

I attempted to open the door to find it was unlocked and to see that the house was surprisingly silent.
"Jimin are you there?"
I called out putting my stuff down on the counter.

Maybe he's sleeping??

I walked up to the bedroom door to find Jimin asleep with a small figure next to him

I can't believe this was happening to me. Was it my past that scared him off? Did I do something wrong in life? Am I not good enough?
I cried quietly realising that the girl next to him was none other than my best friend Rosè.
I covered my mouth to revile the horror of why he didn't tried to contact and fell onto my knee, making a loud noise waking up the 'couple'

Meanwhile Jimin woke seeing a familiar girl crying on the floor realising it was Sunny. The girl he missed.

"S..u.nny"
"Why?"
"What do yo-"
"Jimin who are you talking-- oh Sunny" Rosè said shocked

As I slowly got up I realised that all the criticism I got from people from the company and my past are true.
Who would like a fat, ugly bitch like me?

"Sunny I-"
"Don't say anything to me"
"Sunny please listen to hi-"
"No I won't because the two people I trusted the most have been avoiding me the time I most needed it and were together the whole time"
"Not to forgot the people I love the most, the people who helped me avoid criticism and help me heal from my past the most"
"Sunn-"
"Stop you two have no relationship with me, we are strangers and if you don't like that maybe you'll like enemies"
I started to walked to the door
"Oh Jimin" I said with a croaky voice
"Maybe you can used to tickets to New York with Rosè that were meant for us"
"Bye strangers"
And with that I left that apartment and starting to drive back to the dorm ignoring the ringing from my phone with a sad empty expression on my face.

Chanel's POV

"Aish why isn't she answering?" I groaned with annoyance.
We haven't seen her since this morning and our MV blew up Youtube!
We should of trusted her words but now Chaerin is finally the girl I used to know and so is Hana.
I talked with Tae saying I was sorry and that I wasn't myself during those months and he's forgiven me, and he obviously apologised too because of some of the late night practices and the pressure of not being good enough.
To think how weird all idols have something in common.

"Chanel what's wrong?" Nayeon asked snapping me out of thought.
"Sunny isn't answering my calls.
We are at Twice's dorm to have a sleepover because we all needed it.
"Remember it's hers and Jimin's anniversary maybe she's with him catching up on things?" Sana stated
"Maybe your right" I replied
"I miss Sunny unnie" Tzuyu fake cried
"WE KNOW" the rest of the Twice members shouted.
"Maybe we can have another sleepover but at our dorm" Chaerin screamed.

It feel nice to feel happiness in awhile.

Sunny's POV

"Why is life unfair?" I questioned as I put the blade against my skin.
Seeing the flow of blood made me feel at ease.
I looked in the mirror to see dry and wet tear, my makeup dripping down and redness around my eyes.