Jikook's Playlist

coaster - khalid

As time passes, I feel so low. Searchin' for pieces, covering up the hole.

It was tough, Jungkook couldn't deny the heartache he felt whenever he heard his ex-boyfriends name. Jimin.

It had been three months since they broke it off and Jungkook still remembers that day all too well. It replays vividly in his mind constantly, driving him insane. Doesn't matter who he's with or what he's doing, Jungkook still felt empty.

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All the things that I did for you, just wasn't it for you.

"I-..Its just not enough for me anymore, kook. I'm sorry." Jimin spoke in a quiet tone, packing up the last remaining t-shirts and other random articles of clothing he had sprawled out on their bed. He was packing up everything that he owned. Moving out and away from Jungkook.

"I don't understand.." Jungkook spoke in disbelief from the doorway of their bedroom, his gaze never once leaving the older male in the room. "What did I do wrong, Jimin?! You haven't explained shit and if I hadn't gotten home from school early then I wouldn't have even seen you leave. You would've left without a trace!" His hands balled up to his sides in frustration as he spoke.

"It's not you. I just don't feel happy in this relationship anymore, Jungkook." Jimin's voice was too calm. Scarily calm. He used the others name instead of one of the many cute nicknames that he'd grown accustomed to using. That caused a pain in Jungkook's heart as he clearly took note of the name being used.

I gave you my all, I showed the proof of your lies. And you weren't worth it, you don't deserve me.

"But why not? I've given you everything!"

When the two had first met, everyone described Jungkook to be emotionally detached or reserved from almost anyone, even close friends. So when the two began dating, it wasn't a surprise to see that nothing had changed. But after some time together, Jimin finally sat his boyfriend down and explained that relationships aren't one-sided and that Jungkook would have to be more affectionate and caring or it wouldn't work. Ever since, Jungkook worked on himself and became the caring boyfriend everyone soon found him to be. He changed the most challenging part of him, for the male who was currently standing in from of him and ultimately leaving him. "Stop with the 'it's not you, it's me'-bullshit, it's so cliche." Even though Jungkook's words were stern, tears welled up in his eyes, blurring his vision momentarily.

After that, Jimin finished his packing and left. Never once giving Jungkook the closure he needed. Instead, the younger was left alone in his apartment that felt all too big and empty now that he didn't have that warm personality around him.

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Maybe you weren't the one for me. But deep down I wanted you to be.

The first few days, weeks, were hard for Jungkook to even function properly. He'd forget to eat, or would lay in bed and not leave his house for days. His friends didn't quite know how to help since they had never seen Jungkook in such a vulnerable state. Jin would cook him meals and when he'd stop by days after, the same meals would barely be touched or left in the exact same position as they were when he dropped them off. Namjoon, Hoseok, and Taehyung would come over to play video games to try to cheer the other up, but not even midway through one of the levels Jungkook would stand without a word and lock himself in his room. It was unhealthy.

So I'll be coasting, roller-coasting. Through my emotion. I'm hoping that you'll come back to me.

Jungkook couldn't cope, let alone understand why the love of his life found it so easy to walk out on him. He thought Jimin was his soulmate and they'd surely grow old together. That dream was harshly ripped from his soul the day reality struck and Jimin never returned. Despite all the heartache he'd been going through, deep down Jungkook still loved Jimin and would gladly take him back if the older were to walk through his door in the moment.

Jungkook hated himself for being so weak. Never in his life had he ben that vulnerable to anyone, and that was exactly why. Damn you, Park Jimin.

Moving on seems harder to do. When the one that you love moves faster than you.

"Stop it, babe! That tickles!" Jimin giggled through the speakers, the camera shaking slightly and moving to an odd angle that showed a split second of a head of black feathery hair come in close to Jimin, surely the person who the hair belonged to planting a kiss on his lips. The video cut off right after and all jungkook was left looking at was a thumbnail of a random point of the video. The caption of the post on twitter being, "He knows it tickles when he kisses my neck but he still does it. What a bully! >:(" That was a month after Jimin left. And one of the first times he posted about Yoongi, the boy Jimin had left Jungkook for. Ever since, Jungkook would see pictures or videos of the two that Jimin had posted or retweeted from Yoongi's account on his timeline. He could simply unfollow and block them both but he didnt have the heart to, instead he tortured himself every time he saw them.

How could Jimin move on so easily when Jungkook struggled to even get out of bed in the morning since he knew Jimin wouldn't be in the bed beside him?

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Six months. Six months had passed since that day and Jungkook seemed to be doing a bit better.

As time passes I'm feeling high. You're not the one I'm thinking of tonight.

As time passed, Jungkook and Tae got closer since Taehyung was one of the only ones who stuck around constantly. His forced presence making jungkook become an active part of society again. Tae got jungkook's eating back on track and even got him to go out more.

It was tough for Jungkook to accept the affection Tae gave him, his walls built higher and stronger than before. But Tae was patient, and never left his side.

I may not be over you, but I'll try inside. I'm feeling better now, finally feeling special now.

Now whenever he saw Jimin with Yoongi, it hurt less. Granted, it was still very painful for him, but he could handle it and go on about his day without shutting down completely like the used to do. It was progress.

Taehyung and Jungkook were closer than friends could ever be, but Jungkook didnt label it anything serious since he wasn't quite that prepared yet. However, to anyone who saw the two interact and for anyone who knew them, they'd see exactly what those to where. Tae showed Jungkook to move on and how to love someone again.

One night as he laid in bed with a very tired and snoring Taehyung next to him with his arm draped lazily over the younger's abdomen, he laid wide awake scrolling through his timeline on his phone. A picture popped up of Jimin and his boyfriend. "Happy 5 months to the best boyfriend i could ever ask for!" Jimin posted that about two hours ago.

"You weren't the one for me. So don't come back to me." Jungkook muttered to himself as he clicked on Jimin's profile and hit the unfollow option. Without another word he turned off his phone and let out a sigh, turning his body so that he cuddled into Taehyung's side and closed his eyes. That was the night he'd decide to get over Jimin for sure. He was finally done and free. Jungkook had a new love.

A/N: I understand they didn't end up together but it had to go along with the song ;(( hope you enjoy!