Return of the Flash

7. Alone

It felt horrible.

So this is how Joe and Iris felt in those nine months.

One moment ago someone you loved was jumping around. And the next second he/she's in a coma.

Kara was lying on the bed. Lifeless. But we knew that she's alive. Alex and J'onn were informed as soon as I brought Kara back to STAR Labs. Caitlin pulled out the kryptonite bullet and able to close her wounds. But judging from the toxic on the bullet, it would take a long time for Kara to completely heal, even though she's under Solar Lamps.

"Security footage showed the Lex disappeared into nowhere." Alex said, "We don't know how he did that."

"And more importantly, how did he manage to dissolve Savitar?" Cisco added in. I nodded in agreement. "Who the hell is that guy, anyway?" J'onn asked.

Team Flash looked at me. I sighed, "It's my future-self." I explained how the time remnant of my future-self turned evil and got trapped into the speedforce the first time. "Oh." Alex commented though I could see some wonders in her eyes.

"Don't worry. She will wake up. Even if it takes a longer time for her to heal." J'onn patted my shoulder. I gave him a sad smile and quickly left the cortex. I couldn't face the fact Kara's unconscious. But someone chased after me, "Barry!"

I turned around and saw Alex. She was panting, "Do you have a minute?" I frowned at her words but nodded. She led me to Cisco workshop. She closed the door when both of us entered. I found a chair and sat on it. "Everything ok?" I asked.

"It's not me who should answer that question." Alex crossed her arms as she leaned on the wall, "How're you feeling?"

"Terrible." I admitted, "I'm not fast enough to save her. I should have been faster."

"I'm not gonna pretend that I know how you feel because I don't. But you shouldn't blame yourself for this..." I cut her off, "NO! It's because of me! Savitar IS my future-self! If it wasn't me then Lex Luthor couldn't possibly plan all of these!"

"The future hasn't written yet!" Alex snap. She said the exact same thing Jay Garrick told me a year ago, "I don't care if this Savitar is your future-self because I know you won't become something like him." I looked at her in the eyes and all I saw was that she's sincere about what she said, "These few months, Kara dating you, was the best in her life. I saw her smile was even much brighter than the ones when she's dating Mon-El. You made her happy. And that's all the confirmation I need. I can trust you with her life."

She paused for a while. The silence took over the entire workshop. It was as if I could hear a pin dropping on the floor. "So don't you ever blame everything that has happened to Kara on you, because the person who should be blamed at, is Lex Luthor." She finished. She left the workshop immediately after she finished her sentence. I stared at the floor and thought about what she just told me. I looked around and sighed.

I left the room and rushed over to the hills. I remembered that place was where I went when we discovered Zoom's identity. I sat on the cliff and looked around. I could see the birds flying around, trees waved at each other through the wind. I tossed a rock into the river beneath me. It dropped and created a small ripple on the river.

'I needed someone to talk to.' I thought. So I ran to a place where I could find that person.

Star City Mayor's Office.

~~~~~~~Line Break~~~~~~

"He'll be meeting you shortly." A worker in the mayor office led me to Oliver's office. I looked around as I sat on the chair. It was exactly the same as I remembered. I guess the Merge (that's what we call now) didn't change the decorations of the Mayor's Office. I sighed. Even though it was 5 minutes, it felt like 5 hours.