I Loved You (Yato X Reader ONESHOT)

Cheating Yato X Reader

WARNING: I DO NOT SUPPORT SUICIDAL THOUGHTS OR SUICIDE! PLEASE NO MATTER WHAT DON'T DO IT!

Author POV

(Y/N) have been dating Yato for years and (Y/N) has loved him for years but does he return those fellings for you? I'm sorry, for I am the Author I cannot tell you anything so far at the moment.

(Y/N) POV

Why did I fall for him? Did he ever love me? Has he ever returned these feelings for me? Or was I the idiot who fell for him and blinded myself with my feelings, thinking that he loved my back? I don't know anymore. I should probably give up on him and move on or I can even rid of myself from this world. 

All of my thoughts were corrupting my mind and leading to something I thought would never happen. These thoughts have been happening ever since I saw Him  fucking Bishamon. I had accidentally walked in on him and after that I broke up with him. I bet that he doesn't even care for me. 

No, he doesn't. He's just like your parents and everyone else. They all abandoned you. No one cared for you.

Who are you?!

I'm you but a nightmare. 

Why are you doing this to me? 

What? Corrupting you with these thoughts? 

Yes! 

Well that's because i'm made to do that. You see, i'm your nightmare. I'm something that destroys your life. P

lease just leave me alone! 

Okay then, i'll let you drown yourself.

Then I woke up. I was hoping that this was all a nightmare but it ended up that it was true. How? Well, I used to live with Yato (Please just say that he has a place to live), but now I live with Hiyori. I was afraid that her parents were gonna ask me why and have problems with me moving in with them but surprisingly, they didn't. Hiyori just told them about my problems and told them that I had no place to live.

I looked over to where Hiyori was sleeping and I saw that she was still sleeping. Since I was already in comfortable clothes (Just pick whatever you would wear to sleep and would also consider wearing outside in public. I also forgot to mention this but you're exactly like Hiyori, with the half ayakashi thing), and with the fact that I had accidentally exited my body, I walked out of the house onto the roof and looked up to the sky. "Why?" I asked to no one in general, "I gave you my love and all of my firsts but instead you repay me with this? Meh, why should I care at this point? You're just gonna throw me away like everyone else in my life." I said remembering my past. 

Why don't you revert back to the girl you were before all of this 'love' crap? 

Why are you still here?  I thought that you said that you would let me 'drown by myself'? 

Well yes but I thought that you would need my help in all of this mess. I mean like you know how you were before all of this and the only people who will know of all of this would only be you and me or, should I say, just you. 

Please, just tell me something, why are you haunting my thoughts with negative ones? 

Why, you ask. Well that's a good question. Let's think about this. Why have you been depressed for years before Yato came along and stole your little, stupid heart? Was it because of your abusive parents? Your old boyfriend who was also abusive? Your 'Best-friends' who abandoned you when you needed them the most? Answer that and I may give you your answer you desire.