Tythan - Baby boy blue

Im sorry..

Hi everyone. Um... I'm sorry. Really, I am. I haven't posted anything for a couple days. Its because I'm depressed. I'll explain why, but if you don't care... You can skip through to the end. My explanation isn't too long though.

So at school, I have/had this crush. His name is Nicolas, but everyone calls him Nic for short. He found out I had a crush on him about... Eeh... Maybe 2 to 3 months ago. And in homeroom after I had sat down from getting my binders from my locker.. He goes, "Hey Kira." I look at him. "Yeah?" I say. "You know that tall girl with the black hair in your B connections class?" I shrug. "Maybe." And, HEH, he has the friggin nerve to ask ME.. ME! Of all people! He KNOWS I like him, and he asks, "could you tell her I think she's cute?" He asks. My heart felt like it shattered. "Sure..." I whisper. "Are you okay?" He asks. "No. I'm not." I say, and walk out in the hall because our homeroom teacher told us to. I walked with my friend Arlyn to our B connections. Nic ran up and walked next to me. "Are you okay?.." He asks again. "No." I state and I don't look at him. We had to go our separate ways cuz he had to go to health and I go to Theatre arts. "Kira. Are you okay?" He asks more seriously. That was it. Tears started to form. "No, Nic. I'm not okay." I say, my voice cracking. He looks down. "Well... Talk to me when you feel better." And he walked to Health so he wouldn't be late. Arlyn pat my back. "Its okay." She said, and walked to her class. THEN... In homeroom at bus call, he tried to make me laugh, but I didn't. "Are you still upset?" He asks. I do a kinda thing with my hand. "Kinda?" He asks. I nod. Then he just kept trying to make me laugh. It worked ONCE.. But now I'm depressed. Because now I know he'll never like me. He was a complete A hole. So now my heart is just, aching. Every time I like someone, they seem to like me back. But then they make me sad or depressed. So idk if I can love again. But I have a very sweet boyfriend online. His name is Jeremy. His Google+ name is That One Llama King. He helps me through tough times. But I don't know if he can right now. He isn't really texting me... So now I'm over here, sad. Crying myself to sleep. But I also have friends Irl who try to help me. Like... One of my friends, ILoveJoker333. She goes to my school, and she might be a drama queen.. But she sure knows how to help me feel better. Along with my three other besties. Sara, Isabelle, and Nic's sister Mia.

I'm done now.

I might not post a chapter till tomorrow or the day after. I'll try. Again, I'm sorry for my behaviour. Most people probably think I'm trying to get attention. But, that's not the case... I love you all. And if you're also going through tough times, or have once before... Just know that I'm here. I can help you. You can talk to me at any time.

I'm done talking. I'll see you all soon. Love you. Bye. 💜