today is the day we finally get to take Harper home, after being in the hospital for three days. i am so exited to not be in that bed 24/7, am for my vagina to not be the talk of the hour, every hour. the guys came over for an hour or so, meeting Harper, unfortunately they did have to go pretty soon, Jason stayed the longest. He's been so good to us. my nurse comes in, and we sign a million and one papers for Harper and I. "Ready to get out of here" David says, cradling Harper in his arms. "so ready" i say standing up and into my wheel chair, David puts Harper in my arms and grabs all of our bags.
"Welcome home, baby" i say to the car seat, in Davids arms. "i'm ready to sleep" David smiles and puts the car seat on the table, and takes her out, carrying her into our bedroom. "the bags are still in the car" i wince from the pain, still not fully through the door. David rushes to help me. "we'll get it tomorrow, baby" he kisses my head and helps me to the bedroom. "my vagina hurts" i laugh, sitting on the bed and picking up the baby. "she's so tiny" i smile and kiss her forehead. David sits next to me and kisses her. "i love her so much" he smiled and brings over the bassinet that was in the corner, for Harper to sleep. "you need help getting dressed?" he asks me. "no, ive got it. i'm going to take a shower" i walk over to the bathroom "you need to watch the baby" i tell him, "don't take your eyes off her, she's too small" i say, smiling at my teeny tiny little baby girl. "of corse" he takes his clothes to the bed and dresses, then sits on the bed. "call me if you need anything" i walk into the bathroom.
when i had Harper, she was very very small. i only had her two weeks early. but she was sized premature. she had some problems with her blood sugar, but it went up and now she's fine. I, however had some problem delivering my placenta and was in agony for hours after having her. the epidural also didn't work 100%. i felt pretty much everything. but we're both okay and it was all worth it. David is been the best father i could have imagined. He helps me with the diaper changes and burping since he can't help me feed her, he still stays awake when i feed her, most of the time. and i don't have to ask him. he loves her so much, and i am so happy that he is happy.
i walk out of the shower in my pyjamas to see Harper in Davids arms, cuddling her and singing to her. it was so beautiful to see. he was singing can't help falling in love. i love him. "Harper Eliza, you don't know how lucky you are" i smile, sitting on the bed. "she's asleep" he puts her in the bassinet and lies in bed. "i'm so happy to be out of the hospital" he sighs. "tell me about it" i laugh. "i had a group staring at my vagina 24/7, it was torture." he laughs too. "i love you" he kisses my head "i love you too" i say sleepily and we fall asleep, next to each other, only for two hours before our daughter wakes up and i have to feed her again. it's worth every second.
