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Descent

"I honestly could not want you dead more right now, you fucked up Kal"
He said in a low tone, glaring at Kal.

"I-I... uhm.."
He couldn't find the words. He felt like a heated knife had stabbed him and it burnt but the blood refused to let out. He choked back tears. He forced a slight chuckle and hit Jac on the back.

"Oh well, I'll just try harder next time" He said in an annoying manner, trying to pass it off like he found what had happened funny

Jac shook his head slowly "You're an idiot" he said and walked away, leaving Kal alone

Kal ran home forcibly holding back his tears, his breath turned shaky and his heart physically hurt. He was slowly starting to break under all this pressure he was putting himself in.

He loved Jac more than anything. When they met all he wanted was to be validated by him. He spent all his time trying to build this image of himself that was nowhere near who he actually was. He'd fake laugh and fake a smile and try his hardest to act properly in front of him and pretty much everyone. The only downside was when he got home and was himself, the pressure got to him. He had panic attacks and would break down crying for no reason or rather to many reasons. He had come to terms with the fact that Jac could never love someone like him. Broken down, beaten, emotionally unstable and skittish. He was in essence, useless.... he would always be

Little did he know that Jac loved him, yet also hated him. Jac was annoyed by his voice and his smile and hated everything he attempted then inevitably failed at... yet he couldn't  stop loving the annoying big headed asshole.

When Jac looked at Kal, he saw the stars

When Kal looked at Jac, he saw the sun

But they both thought, they were looking straight through them