Love or Lust

It's been two years since you and Park Chanyeol started dating. It hasn't been the easiest. Him touring all the time with EXO and you have been busy at work and studies so you can follow your own dream. You hardly have the chance to see each other let alone talk to one another. It was getting to the point that the only time that you saw each other was ungodly hours of the morning and that was only to have sex to let off some steam with whatever issues happened that day then he would leave afterwards with kiss on the forehead and a wave goodbye. Was this the feeling of your relationship dying? Should you finally have the guts to say goodbye... Has the flame really burned out?

"Y/N?" Chanyeol asked as he was walking through your front door.

"Chanyeol, what are you doing here? You never come over unannounced" you responded looking away from your phone at your giant, dorky boyfriend slowly making his way towards you.

"Do I have to have a reason to see my girlfriend?" He snapped at you.

You knew something was up. Chanyeol never snaps even if you were being overly annoying and clingy. He raises his voice sometimes but never snapped.

"Ok... Well what brings you here, shouldn't you be working?" You started questioning him, he won't tell you anything unless you do. That boy has always been useless and telling you how he feels.

"Y/N, this isn't working. Our relationship is basically sex, we never see each other, we don't even talk anymore." He said the words that you were waiting to hear for a while now but you never thought it would hurt that much.

Looking over at him you could feel the tears starting to build up in your eyes. Trying to stay strong you dropped your head down and starred at your feet for a while before responding.

"Ok, if that's what you want."

Looking back up at him, you felt the tears starting to run down your face. He noticed as well as he had your face cupped in his hands pulling you into him.

"No, no, no please don't cry." He started pleading "I hate seeing you cry. I still care so much about you but we just never see each other or talk anymore and I hate putting you in this pain."

You were confused. If he knew what was wrong why was he not trying to fix things? If he still cared why won't he fight for you to make it work? Why was he just throwing you away? All these thoughts were running through your head.

"Then why don't we try?" You quietly responded.

"Try what Y/N? You don't see what's wrong here. You think everything is fine. Can't you see the toll it is taking on you?" He exclaimed.

"Of course I do you idiot?" You were yelling now "But don't you see how much I care about you to make things work. Tell me you don't have feelings for me then fine we will end it now! But if you do still care about me and about us then try to make it work. Try to see me more and not just so you can let of steam!"

Your eyes were stinging and your voice was shaky. You were waiting for his response but he just stood there in shook.

"Are you going to answer?" You yelled getting ready to leave to your room.

As you were turning away he pulled you towards him and started kissing you passionately. You stood there for a moment trying to take in what was happening. Wide eyed you finally sank into the kiss. You wrapped your arms around his neck to balance yourself as you were doing this he picked you up and wrapped your legs around his waist as he pressed you up against the wall. As the kiss deepened you felt him desperately tugging at your shirt trying to pull it over your head. Obliging you lift your arms above your head allowing him to remove your shirt gracefully. Lowering your arms you start to pull at his belt, after succeeding in undoing his belt you start to push down his trousers to give his now fully erect penis room to breathe. Carrying you over to the bed he pushes you down and pulls down your shorts. Staring at your naked body he starts kissing up your inner thigh making your way to your wet clit, he starts to kiss it slowly, gently gradually getting faster and rougher.

"Chanyeollie. You're getting me too close." You start to moan from how intense things were getting, you thought to yourself that you can't finish yet, the fun has just started.

Giving you a mischievous smirk he went to go back down but instead you pulled him towards you and started to remove his own pants. You take over and lay him on his back kissing his body as you slowly make your way down to his erection you start to give it light kisses before putting your mouth over and slowly going deeper and deeper then adding a bit of tongue.

"Fuck Y/N." He started moaning as thrusting his hips up allowing you to go deeper.

"Your mouth feels so good" He moans running his hands through your hair as you speed up the pace. Loud moans escaping from his mouth he pulls you up and starts to viciously kiss you.

Flipping you onto your back he grabs your thighs and wraps them once again around his naked body as he pushes his erection into you. Starting off slow then speeding up hit all the right spots making you want more. Digging your nails into his back as he goes deeper inside of you.

"Harder" You were pleading.

Hearing this he pins your arms above your head and starts going faster and harder.

"Y/N" he started moaning your name over and over again in a raspy seductive voice that was sending you over edge.

"Yeol." You moan as you finally finish and your body gives way.

After hearing you finish he quickly finishes himself off and you both lay there in each other's arms.

"You never answered my question." You asked as you got up to put something to cover you up.

"I think I still care about you Y/N..." He responded. "It's just I don't see this working. I'm sorry. I love you."

After hearing the words you could feel tears coming up again.

"I think it's best you leave Yeol." you said with your head hanging low.

"No Y/N! Please don't cry. I do love you please understand that I just don't know."

"Then leave and don't come back until you sort your own shit out!" You were yelling now. Never have you felt so embarrassed to let someone use you like this.

He got up and grabbed his clothes to re dress. Making his way to the door he turned around to look at you.

"Y/N, I'm sorry." He said with tears in his eyes.

"Don't apologies. Just sort your head out and then we can talk." You said slamming the door at his face.

Maybe this is the last time you ever see Park Chanyeol.

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