First love {Suga}

3) Bonding

Chaper 3

I woke up early this morning to have a swim in the pool, no one was there so I thought this could be my thinking time.
I like to think alot, about my future and just life in general and things that make me happy and calm.
I decided that I had been in the water long enough so instead I decided to just lay on a sun bed and read for a bit.
I had a towel over my head so I was able to read because it was so sunny.
As I was enjoying the peace and quiet, I heard footsteps and sighed to myself, I guess I shouldn't be so selfish, this is a shared pool so I should expect people to come swim, and anyway, I could just go back to my room. I took the towel off my head, and to my surprise I saw..suga? That was his name right?
Anyway, he was just laying on a sun bed with some shades on, minding his own business. I couldn't help but chuckle to myself to see the sight of his pale skin, it looked like he doesn't go outside much.
I wanted to say hi, but I was worried he would get irritated so I just decided to walk past quietly, but obviously I wasn't quiet enough.

"Eunha?" I heard a deep voice say, and I knew exactly whose it was.
"Oh..hi" I tried to play it cool but instead I ended up squinting my eyes because I couldn't see in the sun.
I heard him chuckle, what was so funny?
"Do you want to borrow my shades?"
"Oh, no it's okay, I was just about to head inside, but thanks"

I went to my room to get changed into something comfy and decided to go back to the room the piano was in. I was hoping no one was in there because I really wanted to play passionately without feeling like anyone was judging me.
I sat down at the piano, and decided to play the hardest song I knew, even though it wasn't really hard for me anymore because I had practised it so much.
As I started to play, I closed my eyes to feel the music flow through my body.
Playing the piano was my happy place, it was a way of expressing how I was feeling. The song I was playing started of calm and mellow, but it soon increased to harsh music.

I went through a tough time in my life, feeling depressed and suicidal.
The song I was playing expressed how I was feeling in that time and how I felt like there was not escape. Still today, I get depressed, but these days I have been able to find ways to cope with it, such as playing the piano.
I ended the song suddenly, and was breathing heavy, even though playing the piano doesn't seen exhausting, it really is especially when its a really hard song.
I jumped as I heard the door open and quickly turned around to see suga walking in carelessly.
It was silent and I didn't really know what to say, so stupid me decided to say anything random that came to mind.
"Why do you never smile?"
w t f is wrong with me, why did I ask something so pathetic.
"Why do you always smile?" He shot back at me.
Damn.
"Well..smiling can sometimes cheer people up when they are sad.."
He looked at me. I'm not actually sure why he was even in the piano room,  actually there wasn't only a piano in there so I guess you could say music room. But there was a microphone, and he was holding it.
"So what are you doing exactly?" I asked curiously.
"Why are you asking so many questions?" He gave me a emotionless face, again, so I just decided to give him a big grin just to annoy him.
He turned away and started playing some music through the speaker. I was still sat there awkwardly not actually knowing what he was doing, but then he started to rap?
He can rap?
As I was listening I could tell that the song was about something deep.
Some lyrics were like:
'Sometimes I'm afraid of myself, thanks to my self-hatred'
'As time passes by, it feels like I'm becoming a monster.'
I didn't know how to feel, how to react, but for some odd reason, I felt like I could actually relate to the lyrics.
The song got faster but I ended up realising that st the end, it had a more positive message.
He was out of breath at the end of it, panting and trying calm himself.
I could tell this had a big effect on him because he looked a bit emotional.

"That was amazing." I stood up and started clapping.
He looked over and remembered I was still here, watching him.
"It was nothing." He said coldly.
What the hell I was just being nice.
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Ahhh, I really enjoying writing, but I find it really hard at the same time to come up with what to write. But I think I have finally thought of where this story is going to go.
Hope you enjoyed it.
Byee c: