Miracles do happen

It could have been me

Have you ever had your life flash before your eyes. I have. It is something hard to comprehend. One moment I was a carefree 17 year old girl and then bang a flash of light. I truly believed here is the end. I felt like I had no time. I started praying my life away (even if I wasn't that religious at the time), I made myself believe, I had a good life, that I wouldn't of changed anything. I wished the best for your family, that they will be able to grieve. You forget of all of the bad, well I tried.

All of this is forgotten when I woke up. People react in many different ways, for me I was in shock. My parents say that I didn't talk for weeks after the incident. I would lay their in my bed. I truly don't remember what I was thinking about. In a way it was my way to process the events. Since in my case, I had no say in the outcome.

When you come to your senses, after weeks of therapy. You tell yourself that you are going to change, that you will never live selfishly. You hope that this is true. The saying: "Taking each day like it is your last". Is seen to be your given motto. And not to sound cheesy, I feel obligated in a way to follow this saying, if not only for me, but for my brother.

For me, I truly do believe it is a miracle that I am here. Everyday I think of the what if? Sometimes I wish I could turn it off, forget of what happened, yet I live with a burning reminder. In a way I should be grateful, in any other case it could have been me.