As I walk into my grandma's house " Hi honey how was your day?" as she's looking at me "goo.." Before I can say the whole word " what happened? " she looks at me with a concerned face. "Its nothing granny just got what was coming to me...it's fine really " I think I was trying to convince myself and not her. "Sweety tell me the truth did she hurt you again." notice how she says again she has heard all the story about all the punishments. "Yea "I say with tears about to burst out of me . "Tell me everything"
So I began "Granny you have to promise me you won't tell anyone I told you please dont ." "I won't promise" okay "Well we were at pat's and Debra walked in I was okay and happy. Christina gave me gum and I left it in my pocket for later when Debra saw it she went stir crazy she grabbed my hair and dragged me all the way down from the porch of the house to the truck in front that was parked, and banged my head against it multiple times then shoved me into the ground to hit me with anything in view"I try not to cry while explaining but it's hard because I know that their is nothing I can do to stop her. NOTHING . "I got punished for the most stupid thing and still no one helped me .""Everyone just stayed in the house and acted like everything was normal." It's not normal do you know how much it hurts me and how much I wish I can just end everything so that their is no more pain? After I finish im crying my granny comes and holds me "It's okay sweety Im here i love you and I'm so sorry"
I love my granny and mom but it's hard not to think what it would be like to not be scared all the time and to not be able to feel my pain and sadness, but I can't say any of that to my granny ok know I would yet her bad.
"Granny can we make some dessert?" Baking was one of my safe zones made me feel like I was good at something . Baking makes me feel calm. We make some cranberry bread which is AMAZING . I almost forget about having to go home to another punishment for something that I didn't even know was wrong. We watch some tv after we eat a few slices. Did I tell you how I'm not aloud to eat any sort of sugar none. We hear the door bell ring "pim" panick rises in my chest because I know that means it's time for me to go to hell which was my home. Debra walks in "Hey Amber are you ready?" "Yes be out in a second bye granny I love you." I love you too sweety see you tomorrow. " Then she misses me good bye and I get in the car.
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cuts don't always heal
Short Storylet me start by saying you may not like this. It will have violence don't read if you don't like violence . Amber was 2 when everything went side ways for her and her mom They both were abused emotionally and physically by a woman named Deb. Deb w...
