Smiles And Hidden Tears

Boys Don't Cry

The song stops abruptly, but with hesitation. You think you are invisible, but I can spot your pained eyes and your tearful words. Your name rolls off my tongue, sending a dagger to my heart, but I love the pain and it was never beating to begin with. The country pretends to sleep, because it is the only way to hide its crumbling cities. You walk away, without saying goodbye, and there is no way to stop you. And you do it only to take the ticking time bomb away from from me before it explodes.

I smile still, because boys don't cry. And when I saw you love her, I couldn't stop looking, thinking 'she purchased the guitar before I even walked into the store'. I'm watching you and her in a movie, wishing to be on the screen. I should be happy that you're playing that guitar, but I wish I could get to play, just once. I wish I could blind my miserable heart. I'm the dirt you all walk on, and someone buried this coffin full of love and pain in me, unregretfully.

While I am a dead flower, you are the clouds above, and your voice is the rain that nourishes me and makes me alive again. Am I good enough for your love? Or am I just another cause of your pain? And if my street comes to an end, will yours become any narrower? The way you looked at me medicated my loneliness. You looked at me as though I was a dying star in the sky. Do you believe in love? Was it a pot of gold you found in my eyes? Were you stuck in Hollywood?

.But how could it be gold that you saw in my eyes? It must have been something else. Because you are a God, and I am just another sinner.